00:01:39 | takanashikiara: are coming up next week
00:01:42 | takanashikiara:  um
00:01:46 | takanashikiara:  in the later half of next week
00:01:47 | takanashikiara:  and
00:01:57 | takanashikiara:  for my next 3D Live the extra 1 that I got besides my birthday 1 or 1 time only
00:01:58 | takanashikiara:  um
00:02:04 | takanashikiara:  the 1 that was already delayed once which messed up a lot
00:02:10 | takanashikiara:  of things and the stage had to be completely redone
00:02:16 | takanashikiara:  I I really just thought that the Old Stage the other day and I was like man
00:02:21 | takanashikiara:  so good like such a waste because like I'm already
00:02:26 | takanashikiara:  I already made or like they already made up of by my request
00:02:31 | takanashikiara:  uh because we're currently also working on the birthday 1 they already made the birthday 1 and
00:02:33 | takanashikiara:  I was like
00:02:39 | takanashikiara:  I just made like all the plans for the Easter 1
00:02:41 | takanashikiara:  oh God I said Easter
00:02:46 | takanashikiara:  uh spring
00:02:51 | takanashikiara:  no the problem with me saying that is that I kind of swallowed up
00:03:00 | takanashikiara:  well
00:03:06 | takanashikiara:  so anyway I was planning both of them
00:03:11 | takanashikiara:  at the same time and the 1 for spring
00:03:13 | takanashikiara:  is like
00:03:16 | takanashikiara:  the the late 1 right
00:03:20 | takanashikiara:  and I feel like I have trouble coming up with interesting
00:03:28 | takanashikiara:  overall themes and Stage creams but the overall theme usually is reflected in the stage
00:03:33 | takanashikiara:  like I look at other members stuff like what they come up with
00:03:35 | takanashikiara:  I say like too often
00:03:48 | takanashikiara:  but like she I look at what they come up with and like I oh my God stop the just the other day I had a had a little recording for someone else's
00:03:58 | takanashikiara:  upcoming live I had several recently I had 1 um like 2 days ago or 3 days ago I don't know
00:04:04 | takanashikiara:  and then another 1 liter on the day remember literally on a day when I arrived in Japan
00:04:06 | takanashikiara:  last time
00:04:08 | takanashikiara:  like the last time I arrived in Japan
00:04:12 | takanashikiara:  on the same day I had another recording for someone else's live
00:04:17 | takanashikiara:  like everybody has like really interesting
00:04:29 | takanashikiara:  ideas and Concepts and the way trumpets into the stage is really cool and I noticed too that for example my first cover for the live I didn't give much
00:04:31 | takanashikiara:  Direction
00:04:43 | takanashikiara:  I didn't really have much ideas and inspiration and I just hoped that they would come up with something good but I will say I was like low-key disappointed in what I got back then
00:04:51 | takanashikiara:  um because it wasn't much like when you look at what they can do if you give them Direction it's very different
00:04:52 | takanashikiara:  um
00:05:00 | takanashikiara:  and then the the 1 after that was uh I think the 1
00:05:02 | takanashikiara:  the 1 that
00:05:07 | takanashikiara:  uh yeah was it was my next birthday life which was super delayed
00:05:15 | takanashikiara:  um the 1 where I did like the great wonder and so on I think
00:05:21 | takanashikiara:  uh and that stage design also I think was still
00:05:26 | takanashikiara:  pretty simple wait no wait
00:05:32 | takanashikiara:  is that the same live somewhere in my brain I'm separating it is that the same life as the 1
00:05:34 | takanashikiara:  that
00:05:36 | takanashikiara:  had
00:05:39 | takanashikiara:  uh
00:05:41 | takanashikiara:  okay brain empty
00:05:43 | takanashikiara:  and blanking right now
00:05:46 | takanashikiara:  is that the same 1
00:05:57 | takanashikiara:  that had you know me singing aren't those 2 Separate Lives
00:06:10 | takanashikiara:  the 1 where I did that work is that the same life where I did the
00:06:14 | takanashikiara:  where I revealed my rash
00:06:20 | takanashikiara:  I also see
00:06:22 | takanashikiara:  I can
00:06:24 | takanashikiara:  help me
00:06:27 | takanashikiara:  yeah Maria
00:06:34 | takanashikiara:  help me care and the great Wonder those are separate right
00:06:37 | takanashikiara:  so how many pretty likes are going to happen until now
00:06:44 | takanashikiara: and the year after that
00:06:51 | takanashikiara:  the 1 that was made by K was 2021 right
00:06:55 | takanashikiara:  and the 2022 I have a birthday life which was half a year delayed
00:06:59 | takanashikiara:  and that was like in November
00:07:05 | takanashikiara:  which is where I did Lori gaming right and the great 1 there are
00:07:12 | takanashikiara:  right and then that so that was 2022 November 8th okay and 223
00:07:21 | takanashikiara:  no it wasn't that was not 2022 I guess and 22 22 it doesn't because of Corona I don't know fuck
00:07:30 | takanashikiara:  fuck okay can I now can okay can I was 2022 and 2023 November was the 1 where I did like the Great War on the right and so on
00:07:32 | takanashikiara:  and then 2024
00:07:42 | takanashikiara:  it was a birthday life that was also delayed and that was in September it was delayed like to be more of an anniversary life because it ended up in September right
00:07:45 | takanashikiara:  that's the 1 where I did um
00:07:52 | takanashikiara:  yeah the magia and the German song Blue and clowns Etc and Mirage
00:07:57 | takanashikiara:  right yeah that should be it
00:07:59 | takanashikiara:  and that was
00:08:16 | takanashikiara:  and so for that 1 I I gave more direction for the stages there that I did for the other ones and I could tell that the result is way more satisfying and way more interesting than when I give less Direction I'm just trying to leave it to them
00:08:24 | takanashikiara:  um and then but then even then even then when I look at what the others come up with I'm like oh wow this is possible like
00:08:30 | takanashikiara:  usually when you start planning this stuff you have to choose the stage as a base
00:08:31 | takanashikiara:  um
00:08:34 | takanashikiara:  like 1 of the existing stages
00:08:53 | takanashikiara:  like the EM stage or the ID stage or the there are several JP stages and you choose from them but like the countdown stage there's like 2 countdown stages or so you choose from them and then you're like on top of this I want this and this and this and this but some members managed to come up with themes and Concepts
00:09:01 | takanashikiara:  where you can't even tell them what's which stage they're dancing because it just looks like a completely new original thing you know what I mean
00:09:05 | takanashikiara:  oh my God holy mother
00:09:22 | takanashikiara: yeah and then I look at that and I'm like oh my God that's allowed like because like the there's like it's not so clear like how far 1 can go
00:09:26 | takanashikiara:  how much can I ask for and how much
00:09:34 | takanashikiara:  is like feasible but even if I wanted something more intricate I don't know what I would want you know
00:09:38 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:09:47 | takanashikiara:  so I wish I had so many creative ideas sometimes I just want to ask you guys but then I kind of spoiler you that I'm working on something you know
00:10:08 | takanashikiara:  but um so then I had this amazing idea that I was so happy with for the like winter 1 the extra slot that was going to be in end of 2024 and they already finished it and it looked so good and I was like yeah thank God I had like a more
00:10:17 | takanashikiara:  like a better more intricate concept that I thought of for for once because it became such an a nice result
00:10:21 | takanashikiara:  and I was like fuck now I have to rethink everything and this is being scrapped
00:10:32 | takanashikiara:  and I will say I do think for the upcoming 1 the the completely New Concept that I came up with I chose that specific specific time frame
00:10:39 | takanashikiara:  only for the reason that it gave me a concept naturally that I could work with
00:10:47 | takanashikiara:  um I'm not just pulling something out of my ass like a lot of the other members do uh which I am amazed by
00:10:52 | takanashikiara:  I wish I could do that I'm just using the the season
00:10:53 | takanashikiara:  um
00:11:00 | takanashikiara:  oh yeah the volcano what the fuck I had a volcano what did I really have that
00:11:15 | takanashikiara:  anyway um yeah thanks to the thanks to it being like again seasoned specific I um ended up being able to come up with an interesting theme and it became a nice looking
00:11:24 | takanashikiara:  stage honestly it doesn't look like a stage anymore again there we have it that's the thing where I was like some members come up with
00:11:38 | takanashikiara:  things that make it look like it's not even the original stage anymore and it just looks like a completely separate world and I'm like how do they do it but I ended up doing this too you will see and understand when you see it
00:11:41 | takanashikiara:  but
00:11:48 | takanashikiara: for this upcoming 1
00:11:54 | takanashikiara:  that used up all of my brain juices and I couldn't come up with anything interesting
00:11:57 | takanashikiara:  for the birthday 1 I'll be honest
00:12:02 | takanashikiara:  I'll be honest but I honestly I'm I'm fine with that
00:12:18 | takanashikiara:  because I don't I for me the focus is on the performances the participating members the songs Etc the singing um I think the stage doesn't need to be something
00:12:25 | takanashikiara:  like completely mind-blowing it would be cool but it doesn't need to be I like it simple too
00:12:27 | takanashikiara:  um
00:12:34 | takanashikiara:  but then I look at what the others do and I'm like fuck why didn't I think of this why didn't I pick up something like this
00:12:35 | takanashikiara:  damn
00:12:36 | takanashikiara:  what the heck
00:12:40 | takanashikiara:  and now it's too late it's too late I mean
00:12:54 | takanashikiara:  it's still in the creation place and and I'm still like adding some like objects or like I'm hoping to add something I'm like guys staff stuff is on can you come up with anything anything extra to add to this because right now it's rather simple
00:12:56 | takanashikiara:  and
00:13:00 | takanashikiara:  like it needs more but I don't know what please just
00:13:05 | takanashikiara:  add anything but like if I don't give direct instructions
00:13:07 | takanashikiara:  it's like
00:13:11 | takanashikiara:  nothing much comes out of this I've noticed
00:13:22 | takanashikiara:  yeah but whatever it's fine whatever I don't care I wish I wish that my birthday was in winter
00:13:24 | takanashikiara:  because then I could just reuse the
00:13:27 | takanashikiara:  the stages and I was scrapped
00:13:33 | takanashikiara:  but in Prior I could move my birthday life to Winter
00:13:39 | takanashikiara:  but I'm not doing that this time because for once I have my birthday on time
00:13:41 | takanashikiara:  so
00:13:43 | takanashikiara:  well
00:13:45 | takanashikiara:  well
00:13:47 | takanashikiara:  it's okay
00:14:03 | takanashikiara:  it will be simple for the birthday 1 but the upcoming 1 honestly the upcoming 1 is crazy that's why I wanted to talk to you guys because you don't understand how crazy this would be there you're I already gonna mention that there will be a lot of participants right
00:14:08 | takanashikiara:  right which drives up the cost
00:14:13 | takanashikiara:  insanely actually never thought it could cost as much
00:14:20 | takanashikiara: um
00:14:24 | takanashikiara:  yeah uh but like you guys gonna
00:14:32 | takanashikiara:  be mindful usually usually so here's also a thing like usually I um
00:14:35 | takanashikiara:  usually I always go for
00:14:39 | takanashikiara:  um English songs mostly
00:14:45 | takanashikiara:  but like I try to get in as many English songs as possible into
00:14:47 | takanashikiara:  um my set list
00:14:48 | takanashikiara:  for these things
00:14:53 | takanashikiara:  um but for this upcoming 1 I also told you it has a very specific theme
00:14:56 | takanashikiara:  which is why the songs
00:14:58 | takanashikiara:  will not be in English
00:15:01 | takanashikiara:  um and
00:15:04 | takanashikiara:  so unfortunately subtitles are old
00:15:07 | takanashikiara:  as you may have heard before
00:15:21 | takanashikiara:  but there also won't be any subtitles but it doesn't matter the songs are really really nice but it's not it's not a I mean I I wish you guys could also understand the meanings of some of the songs
00:15:23 | takanashikiara:  but
00:15:32 | takanashikiara:  it's more about the performances anyway you guys don't need to understand what these songs mean you don't need to know
00:15:35 | takanashikiara:  audio changed
00:15:38 | takanashikiara:  oh I must have like
00:15:41 | takanashikiara:  I don't know the Wi-Fi
00:15:50 | takanashikiara:  the Wi-Fi most of suddenly done something with my mic with the yeah whatever
00:15:52 | takanashikiara:  I don't change anything
00:15:54 | takanashikiara:  it's the Wi-Fi
00:15:58 | takanashikiara:  yeah it's okay even if I was okay
00:16:00 | takanashikiara:  I hope so
00:16:02 | takanashikiara:  I mean
00:16:04 | takanashikiara:  I was looking into it
00:16:08 | takanashikiara:  I was kind of begging them
00:16:13 | takanashikiara:  cuz it's going to be pretty much like every song is going to be Japanese except for
00:16:17 | takanashikiara:  um my new original song that will be
00:16:18 | takanashikiara:  there
00:16:24 | takanashikiara:  wow wow that's so much better oh my God chill
00:16:28 | takanashikiara:  how bad was it before Xbox mic
00:16:31 | takanashikiara:  all right all right
00:16:42 | takanashikiara:  yeah I mean I could yeah I could put Japanese subtitles but like that doesn't help you guys and it will just drive up my cost because I have to pay for
00:16:58 | takanashikiara: ibra I make it myself or pay a professional but then also it has to be sent to the um
00:17:02 | takanashikiara:  song creators and approved by them
00:17:09 | takanashikiara:  and that just sounds like a process that could take out a while and be very annoying
00:17:18 | takanashikiara:  and then something about like hard Subs that are like in the footage
00:17:25 | takanashikiara:  something with that being like not allowed or something like that uh I don't know I think like translations
00:17:28 | takanashikiara:  being hard subbed is not allowed or so
00:17:34 | takanashikiara:  like there's some law or I don't know it's like pretty serious
00:17:36 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:17:38 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:17:47 | takanashikiara:  but then it's a live stream you know I can't like I could use the YouTube CeCe you know but in the live stream know I can't
00:17:49 | takanashikiara:  not beforehand
00:17:55 | takanashikiara:  only afterwards so but then most people only watch it once like when it's live
00:17:59 | takanashikiara:  so what's the point of adding in the afterwards right so like
00:18:02 | takanashikiara:  so I was just like whatever probably just
00:18:03 | takanashikiara:  don't need
00:18:05 | takanashikiara:  it
00:18:10 | takanashikiara:  it would get in the way of my screenshots
00:18:25 | takanashikiara:  yeah you know I I sometimes I see um I was just thinking of the really simple subtitles that are on the bottom of the screen in a simple font I wasn't even thinking of the fancy ones but sometimes the fancy ones are nice too when I look at other girls's lives um
00:18:28 | takanashikiara:  but that cost extra and I'm trying to
00:18:31 | takanashikiara:  trying to keep the cost down
00:18:46 | takanashikiara:  as much as I can and I I like it's simple anyway I feel like honestly the fancy Subs they also kind of low-key ruin the immersion in my opinion and there's just too much going on on the screen I want you guys to focus on
00:18:52 | takanashikiara:  the coral the performance because I'm very like dance focused anyway so
00:18:54 | takanashikiara:  I don't want to
00:18:57 | takanashikiara:  add too much like bling bling on the screen
00:19:02 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:19:08 | takanashikiara:  real weeps watch it wrong
00:19:10 | takanashikiara:  I'm just talking about anime huh
00:19:16 | takanashikiara:  it just looks busy
00:19:42 | takanashikiara:  are you going to use new Idol outfits well well well
00:19:45 | takanashikiara:  of course I will
00:19:47 | takanashikiara:  so much
00:19:50 | takanashikiara:  variety of course I'm going to use it
00:19:58 | takanashikiara:  um what else was I gonna say oh yeah
00:20:01 | takanashikiara:  uh so I still have like
00:20:09 | takanashikiara:  so much to learn so I still have to learn so many songs and like
00:20:14 | takanashikiara:  a lot of it I have a lot of it I decided to learn on my own
00:20:19 | takanashikiara:  because it's like existing Correos anyway
00:20:26 | takanashikiara:  the dance teachers are not coming up with anything new in particular for
00:20:28 | takanashikiara:  these songs
00:20:32 | takanashikiara:  so um I'm doing like
00:20:37 | takanashikiara:  I'm just learning it on my own for the songs that I'm doing alone
00:20:39 | takanashikiara:  and
00:20:43 | takanashikiara:  um what was I gonna say oh yeah
00:20:50 | takanashikiara:  it's just a lot I I I I feel like like
00:20:57 | takanashikiara:  I'm very used to learning dances on my own anyway
00:20:59 | takanashikiara:  um
00:21:05 | takanashikiara:  it's maybe a little bit easier with a
00:21:11 | takanashikiara:  teacher breaking it down but I'm again kind of trying to save cost
00:21:15 | takanashikiara:  because like dance lessons will cost money
00:21:23 | takanashikiara:  so trying my best
00:21:26 | takanashikiara:  but I'm a little I'm a little bit panicky right now
00:21:29 | takanashikiara:  try to learn 1 thing today
00:21:31 | takanashikiara:  1 Song
00:21:34 | takanashikiara:  um and
00:21:38 | takanashikiara:  it's going okay thankfully the moves are
00:21:40 | takanashikiara:  pretty repetitive and
00:21:45 | takanashikiara:  yeah it's a bit funky though some moves are a bit funky
00:21:51 | takanashikiara:  um Frugal Joel
00:21:55 | takanashikiara:  but then I noticed like sometimes I don't know
00:22:03 | takanashikiara: on when this happens like maybe I didn't stretch properly or is it
00:22:04 | takanashikiara:  just
00:22:15 | takanashikiara:  how my body feels today does it have to do with my breathing whatever sometimes like today I will notice like my chest hurts
00:22:18 | takanashikiara:  like it's like there's um
00:22:23 | takanashikiara:  the sensation of
00:22:25 | takanashikiara:  um
00:22:27 | takanashikiara:  how to say
00:22:30 | takanashikiara:  um
00:22:37 | takanashikiara:  stabby stabbing into my chest
00:22:41 | takanashikiara:  it really hurts
00:22:47 | takanashikiara:  when I try to like it's when I try to work out like dancing
00:22:49 | takanashikiara:  um
00:22:52 | takanashikiara:  there's a really distinct
00:22:57 | takanashikiara:  stabbing sharp feeling
00:23:05 | takanashikiara:  uh and I had that today and I made it pretty painful to dance
00:23:13 | takanashikiara:  I'm not sure I have that sometimes I don't know why probably just
00:23:20 | takanashikiara: probably
00:23:22 | takanashikiara:  maybe if
00:23:37 | takanashikiara:  I stretched more maybe it wouldn't have happened because I I barely stretched today because like I don't know I'm still just like trying to learn the moves um from scratch very like very roughly at first
00:23:48 | takanashikiara:  so there's no no real need to stretch that much but honestly I should but I was kind of I didn't have so much time so I tried to save time but not stretching
00:23:53 | takanashikiara:  on but yeah
00:24:11 | takanashikiara:  no it's not regular muscle pain at all it's like a if I I mean I never had a heart attack so I don't know how that feels but I would just like instinctively I would say like oh I'm about to have a heart attack which of course I'm not having a heart attack but
00:24:15 | takanashikiara:  you know what I mean instinctively it's like oh my God
00:24:17 | takanashikiara:  oh my God
00:24:34 | takanashikiara:  but to be honest like generally my my cold and everything is gone but I've
00:24:39 | takanashikiara:  physically I'm not in a good condition right now to be honest
00:24:42 | takanashikiara:  I don't want to like
00:24:45 | takanashikiara:  talk too much about it but yeah um
00:24:48 | takanashikiara:  there's some
00:24:50 | takanashikiara:  some shit
00:24:55 | takanashikiara:  yeah then I'm dealing with physically I'm not doing so well
00:24:59 | takanashikiara:  um
00:25:16 | takanashikiara:  I was thinking of going to a doctor in Japan but I'm like no no no
00:25:19 | takanashikiara:  I don't like the father of that
00:25:23 | takanashikiara:  it's scary
00:25:26 | takanashikiara:  like
00:25:28 | takanashikiara:  I started looking
00:25:35 | takanashikiara:  through some like first I was looking for some English-speaking doctors and then I read some um
00:25:42 | takanashikiara:  reviews and then some of it was like oh the doctor was very condescending and so on I'm like fuck that
00:25:44 | takanashikiara:  fuck that
00:25:51 | takanashikiara:  but then I don't know how comfortable I feel with
00:25:57 | takanashikiara:  going to a non even though I speak fluent Japanese I just feel like someone speaking English
00:26:04 | takanashikiara:  I would feel more comfortable there just because it feels closer to home you know what I mean
00:26:07 | takanashikiara:  like otherwise it feels so foreign and
00:26:08 | takanashikiara:  and
00:26:12 | takanashikiara:  foreign in in a literal sense like
00:26:16 | takanashikiara:  like alien you know what I mean
00:26:19 | takanashikiara:  I just don't feel comfortable and
00:26:29 | takanashikiara:  no it's okay it's it's like I'm not in the best condition but like I'm fine
00:26:32 | takanashikiara:  um
00:26:36 | takanashikiara:  I'm okay I can handle I've I've handled worse
00:26:44 | takanashikiara:  I've had sharp chest pains come and go on occasion yeah same same same like sometimes my condition will be totally fine
00:26:47 | takanashikiara:  and then today was 1 of those days
00:27:00 | takanashikiara: at the
00:27:08 | takanashikiara: you could ask for I did
00:27:11 | takanashikiara:  I've been asking around like a few people
00:27:30 | takanashikiara:  oh but uh the tour and muscle thing that I talked about a while ago that 1's gone
00:27:32 | takanashikiara:  yippee
00:27:37 | takanashikiara:  that 1's been gone for a while
00:27:44 | takanashikiara:  hi we're going to cause chest wall inflammation
00:27:46 | takanashikiara:  what
00:27:49 | takanashikiara:  I'm not sure how that's supposed to feel
00:27:52 | takanashikiara:  I don't know fiber can do that
00:28:00 | takanashikiara:  the Rocky Point I had to explain to someone what occupy is the other day I think it was Kubo
00:28:24 | takanashikiara:  she thought she had walkie pie I was like no you don't you don't have occupied walkie pie is really um it doesn't actually work but it doesn't matter you don't have to have boobs for it really but it's like occupy is really just about
00:28:28 | takanashikiara:  the cut of your shirt or whatever
00:28:32 | takanashikiara:  there has to be a big enough opening
00:28:36 | takanashikiara:  on the side under the under the
00:28:37 | takanashikiara:  um
00:28:39 | takanashikiara:  underarms
00:28:48 | takanashikiara:  so that you can see under the pit so that you can see the line of the boob even if it's a small 1 there should be a line
00:28:50 | takanashikiara:  and that's occupied
00:28:57 | takanashikiara:  it's not just having boobs or so under the pit
00:29:01 | takanashikiara:  it has like
00:29:05 | takanashikiara:  it cannot be covered by cloves it's usually it means that
00:29:12 | takanashikiara:  the the the cut where anyway who cares why am I saying this
00:29:27 | takanashikiara:  no occupy is not armpit armpit is wacky
00:29:30 | takanashikiara:  see I guess some of you guys needed to hear this too
00:29:32 | takanashikiara:  no
00:29:33 | takanashikiara:  no
00:29:35 | takanashikiara:  armpit is lucky
00:29:40 | takanashikiara:  lucky pie is a combination of wacky which is armpit and opa which is boobs
00:29:43 | takanashikiara:  so it's the view
00:29:49 | takanashikiara:  from like a relatively open cut shirt or dress or whatever
00:29:58 | takanashikiara:  um from the side like being like being able to see the line of the boob on the side
00:30:01 | takanashikiara:  under the pit armpit
00:30:05 | takanashikiara:  okay whatever who cares
00:30:11 | takanashikiara:  side side oh my God thank God there is a word for that it's side boob thank you
00:30:15 | takanashikiara:  literally just side boob
00:30:25 | takanashikiara:  yeah wa has really strong side boob occupy
00:30:32 | takanashikiara:  you care you care wow
00:30:37 | takanashikiara:  mhm mhm
00:30:39 | takanashikiara:  good
00:31:02 | takanashikiara:  yeah I'm actually I kind of am messing up dates the whole time I I realized I'm leaving Japan 1 day earlier than I thought I was and I realized oh I'm moving to the streaming apartment 1 day earlier than I thought I was like why is everything so
00:31:04 | takanashikiara:  like wrong in my brain
00:31:12 | takanashikiara:  so it turns out tomorrow I'm moving into the streaming apartment and it turns out it's therefore most likely
00:31:15 | takanashikiara:  not the CC1
00:31:20 | takanashikiara:  I I got that wrong I think
00:31:27 | takanashikiara:  but so I wrote to CC I'm like hey I I think I'm not taking over your
00:31:30 | takanashikiara:  uh apartment after all
00:31:44 | takanashikiara:  and she's like oh no but I I I spread my hairs everywhere for you and I'm like well can you just like collect them all and turn them into a flower bouquet and give it to me like that she's like okay deal it's a joke of course
00:31:49 | takanashikiara:  it's joke
00:32:00 | takanashikiara:  huh huh huh
00:32:06 | takanashikiara:  I'm so glad I
00:32:10 | takanashikiara: you know when Justice debuted
00:32:12 | takanashikiara:  debuted
00:32:25 | takanashikiara:  I I I mean this is not for any particular reason because I I'm just generally always unsure about this because I don't think you can really know but I was like
00:32:32 | takanashikiara:  not sure who or if at all I could get along with
00:32:34 | takanashikiara:  um
00:32:40 | takanashikiara:  but that's that's just like you know you don't know you don't know them so how can you know
00:32:42 | takanashikiara:  um
00:32:46 | takanashikiara:  although like for Advent I
00:32:50 | takanashikiara:  I had some expectations of who I would get along with
00:32:52 | takanashikiara:  and
00:32:54 | takanashikiara:  I feel like
00:32:57 | takanashikiara:  I feel like that
00:33:06 | takanashikiara:  partially like partially that expectation was wrong like I got along more of
00:33:12 | takanashikiara:  a 1 that I wasn't expecting for example more than the other also
00:33:17 | takanashikiara:  not saying that I didn't get along with somebody but you know more with 1 than the other
00:33:28 | takanashikiara:  and like I expected and yeah with justice anyway I I really wasn't sure I was hoping to get along with everybody but I I couldn't really
00:33:34 | takanashikiara: couldn't really
00:33:36 | takanashikiara:  imagine
00:33:41 | takanashikiara:  and
00:33:46 | takanashikiara:  yeah now I feel like
00:33:48 | takanashikiara:  I get along with all of them
00:33:51 | takanashikiara:  and
00:33:57 | takanashikiara:  yeah in the beginning I I I remember like before Justice
00:34:03 | takanashikiara:  even the beauty after they got introduced to us and after I found out who's like
00:34:10 | takanashikiara:  whose uh from my continent I um
00:34:14 | takanashikiara:  or like who lives in my continent supposedly
00:34:22 | takanashikiara:  supposedly because uh those are some country names I've never heard of before
00:34:31 | takanashikiara:  but I I immediately thought I should try my best to get along with them
00:34:32 | takanashikiara:  because
00:34:35 | takanashikiara:  we could do some cool stuff together
00:34:39 | takanashikiara:  as we are from the same region
00:34:46 | takanashikiara:  and so I wanted to do like a European Prime Time Podcast with them
00:34:48 | takanashikiara:  and
00:34:59 | takanashikiara:  I offered it to them before um they debuted and they were not sure about it probably didn't really feel like committing
00:35:01 | takanashikiara:  which is okay um
00:35:06 | takanashikiara:  but that's why it never happened it never happened
00:35:08 | takanashikiara:  um you never know though for the future
00:35:11 | takanashikiara:  but uh
00:35:17 | takanashikiara:  at the time I thought you know I should I I I would hope I would get along with
00:35:21 | takanashikiara:  the time zone sharing people
00:35:30 | takanashikiara:  but uh now I just get along with everybody know I think like I ended up like
00:35:31 | takanashikiara:  uh
00:35:37 | takanashikiara:  just from the type of character
00:35:45 | takanashikiara:  like personality I immediately felt like oh giggy is someone who I would watch
00:35:47 | takanashikiara:  and
00:35:52 | takanashikiara:  I really love her energy because it's so easy to like collab with
00:35:55 | takanashikiara:  I love energetic people
00:35:57 | takanashikiara:  for collabs
00:36:02 | takanashikiara:  and I don't know if my character design also yeah
00:36:06 | takanashikiara:  and just her vibe but everybody loves geeky
00:36:08 | takanashikiara:  and
00:36:13 | takanashikiara:  yeah then then I that's surprisingly close
00:36:22 | takanashikiara:  and I don't know I didn't just I just didn't expect it that much that also it would happen so fast
00:36:26 | takanashikiara:  but yeah it's probably
00:36:30 | takanashikiara:  I don't know is it because I met her before
00:36:33 | takanashikiara:  the others before I met the others I mean
00:36:36 | takanashikiara:  like earlier than I met the others
00:36:39 | takanashikiara:  is it because of that didn't I already kind of
00:36:43 | takanashikiara:  get along with her before we met in Japan
00:36:46 | takanashikiara:  I don't know
00:36:50 | takanashikiara:  but now I would say I'm like closest with na
00:36:56 | takanashikiara:  I think me and Loba have been connecting and bonding a lot
00:36:57 | takanashikiara:  um
00:36:59 | takanashikiara:  you know
00:37:01 | takanashikiara:  kind of giving each other
00:37:03 | takanashikiara:  the support that we both need
00:37:09 | takanashikiara: being there for each other
00:37:12 | takanashikiara:  so
00:37:16 | takanashikiara: I really appreciate what I have with her
00:37:24 | takanashikiara:  I really
00:37:26 | takanashikiara:  bonded with everybody though
00:37:30 | takanashikiara:  like it's crazy how much fun I have with herb for example
00:37:43 | takanashikiara:  and I've been like chit chatting a lot with CeCe too when we met up like here and there but surprisingly the 1 that before meeting up
00:37:47 | takanashikiara:  in Japan the 1 that I was
00:38:00 | takanashikiara:  like so like getting along with so well online geeky is the 1 that I ended up doing the least with meeting the least and talking to the least sadly
00:38:02 | takanashikiara:  it's just kind of
00:38:04 | takanashikiara:  ended up like that
00:38:08 | takanashikiara:  she was rarely in my vicinity
00:38:20 | takanashikiara:  and I'm sad about that and when she was then usually CeCe was there and usually they were like clinging to each other
00:38:28 | takanashikiara:  so I kept on saying to gee when I did see her I was like
00:38:40 | takanashikiara:  I I kind of did the least with you throughout this whole trip I kind of saw you the least and I kind of like bonded with you the least and I'm so mad about it
00:38:48 | takanashikiara:  but even even in the short amount of time she's been very sweet and funny and open
00:38:53 | takanashikiara:  and like like in the karaoke suddenly giving me a massage and so on
00:38:58 | takanashikiara:  what oh oh you've heard that they're Inseparable yeah they really are
00:39:03 | takanashikiara:  so it's like yeah like how do I get in between that
00:39:08 | takanashikiara:  it's nice though it's nice to see like how
00:39:10 | takanashikiara:  um
00:39:16 | takanashikiara:  they the management how they managed to put a gen together where
00:39:17 | takanashikiara:  um
00:39:27 | takanashikiara:  it's honestly it's it reminds me a little bit of good and how they found some people of course you know they find the whole gen and
00:39:33 | takanashikiara:  being like managing to just like coincidentally finding 2 Souls who
00:39:36 | takanashikiara:  just get along with on that level
00:39:39 | takanashikiara:  with each other on that level
00:39:47 | takanashikiara:  of course they all get along right but like you see something special going on between CC and Gigi and it just reminds me of a
00:39:49 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:39:51 | takanashikiara:  it was nice to see
00:39:54 | takanashikiara:  such a
00:39:56 | takanashikiara:  oh sweet couple
00:39:59 | takanashikiara:  that has so much fun together
00:40:01 | takanashikiara:  good for them
00:40:09 | takanashikiara:  good for them but also Kiki is so popular man I I'm I've been like kind of intimidated
00:40:15 | takanashikiara:  why didn't my chat stop moving hello
00:40:17 | takanashikiara:  Moto
00:40:20 | takanashikiara:  Chad
00:40:24 | takanashikiara:  oh there you go I refreshed it
00:40:36 | takanashikiara:  yeah did he is so popular that it intimidates me and like I think this was already before I met it already kind of intimidated me
00:40:42 | takanashikiara:  everybody wants her so bad
00:40:51 | takanashikiara:  and I'm like oh I'll take a step back then you know I'm subconsciously unconsciously I'm dead
00:40:55 | takanashikiara:  I'm just like taking a step back because like I feel like
00:41:04 | takanashikiara:  I can't even compete with all these people that want geeky so bad you know what I mean like legitimately
00:41:12 | takanashikiara:  yeah yeah her her Riz is too strong and then everybody's raising her and I'm like fuck
00:41:14 | takanashikiara:  fuck
00:41:18 | takanashikiara:  I'm losing the the gige um cup
00:41:20 | takanashikiara:  or whatever
00:41:33 | takanashikiara:  yeah that's what she would say
00:41:41 | takanashikiara:  must be nice man to be like so so at the geeky Bowl yeah
00:41:43 | takanashikiara:  so wanted
00:41:46 | takanashikiara:  like everybody
00:41:49 | takanashikiara:  the whole branch
00:42:00 | takanashikiara:  how how can you be so Rizzi
00:42:02 | takanashikiara:  crazy
00:42:15 | takanashikiara:  like I'm I
00:42:21 | takanashikiara: but I will continue loving her from afar
00:42:25 | takanashikiara:  and think about what could be
00:42:28 | takanashikiara:  but I'm
00:42:30 | takanashikiara:  probably
00:42:31 | takanashikiara:  more and more
00:42:33 | takanashikiara:  fading away
00:42:39 | takanashikiara:  and moving away well she's well she's
00:42:44 | takanashikiara:  like kissing other people
00:42:48 | takanashikiara:  I'm taking up a few more
00:42:51 | takanashikiara:  but I am impressed by her is
00:42:53 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:43:00 | takanashikiara:  orange angst yeah
00:43:22 | takanashikiara:  it's Ian REO all over again well what do you mean like what what who who which uh situation are we talking about because me and Ian Reko I was just
00:43:26 | takanashikiara:  I was just
00:43:28 | takanashikiara:  alone
00:43:33 | takanashikiara:  is that what you mean because I mean it's kind of true
00:43:43 | takanashikiara:  speaking of I really like the Ian Rego booth at the Expo
00:43:46 | takanashikiara:  the comics were so cute
00:43:50 | takanashikiara:  I'm I'm really really happy they made an Ean REO booth
00:43:52 | takanashikiara:  such a big 1 too
00:43:54 | takanashikiara:  very nice
00:44:08 | takanashikiara:  yeah yeah I was trying to like get her attention and Ian REO but like all her attention was on on Amin and if even like in the future
00:44:23 | takanashikiara:  like I don't think she'll go for me because everybody just resists her up so hard especially because she's kind of playing the role of a a man and so all these ladies will already like fight for her
00:44:27 | takanashikiara:  like how can I even compete
00:44:30 | takanashikiara:  I'm not
00:44:32 | takanashikiara:  good enough for her
00:44:48 | takanashikiara:  yeah also cuz I'm not that good with role playing especially in English
00:44:52 | takanashikiara:  everybody wants to Humble night yeah
00:44:58 | takanashikiara:  I was I was kind of playing on humble nights too though I guess I was kind of like
00:45:06 | takanashikiara:  trying to cope with not being able to raise anybody up by just saying oh I am
00:45:11 | takanashikiara:  um loyal to my duties I'm not allowed to have
00:45:12 | takanashikiara:  a partner
00:45:14 | takanashikiara:  so
00:45:17 | takanashikiara:  I shouldn't be raising up anybody anyway
00:45:24 | takanashikiara:  it's a tragedy tragedy
00:45:36 | takanashikiara:  yeah me and Herb
00:45:41 | takanashikiara:  I think me and herbal now that I know her better and everything I think uh
00:45:43 | takanashikiara:  we might
00:45:47 | takanashikiara:  continue our loyal Knight Ark
00:45:49 | takanashikiara:  even better next time
00:45:55 | takanashikiara:  all even though we are serving different Queens
00:45:58 | takanashikiara:  but in the end
00:46:02 | takanashikiara:  I ended up
00:46:09 | takanashikiara:  getting married right so now me and Herb should be United if this continues
00:46:11 | takanashikiara:  like that
00:46:15 | takanashikiara:  wonderful now we can work together
00:46:25 | takanashikiara:  but who knows I don't I don't know if we are not just like kind of resetting everything again so to say
00:46:27 | takanashikiara:  I don't know
00:46:31 | takanashikiara:  I don't think we're gonna completely continue all of that
00:46:36 | takanashikiara:  because it also kind of like
00:46:40 | takanashikiara:  for people like me who aren't able to
00:46:44 | takanashikiara:  insert themselves that well previously
00:46:51 | takanashikiara:  it's kind of difficult to find an entrance anywhere you know what I mean
00:46:54 | takanashikiara:  so a little bit of a reset
00:46:58 | takanashikiara:  for me personally would be helpful
00:47:02 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:47:09 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:47:17 | takanashikiara:  so this name
00:47:20 | takanashikiara:  so
00:47:31 | takanashikiara: the guilds I also would I don't know either they are going to be shuffled again or they do something different I don't know
00:47:35 | takanashikiara:  I think they'll be necessary though
00:47:40 | takanashikiara:  I'd like to see a shuffle honestly
00:48:07 | takanashikiara:  but yeah the people behind you in regular they're really um motivated and sweet and after the first 1 you know with any kind of project really they give us usually like some kind of survey where we tell them what we liked what we didn't like what we would like to do next time and so on and we all did that so
00:48:13 | takanashikiara:  uh you know they always listen to our feedback
00:48:27 | takanashikiara:  um yeah it was just me and that would out
00:48:30 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:48:54 | takanashikiara:  and then we had to kind of because we on our own we just we were just lost too so we had to kind of try to like I was really in a shity place because I couldn't participate every day which already set me back in inserting myself in terms of role play and then my guild was almost non-existent
00:49:03 | takanashikiara:  and others were existent though and had good groupings and so on that felt like set in stone
00:49:07 | takanashikiara:  so trying to insert myself in that I tried a few times
00:49:10 | takanashikiara:  but it always felt so forced and difficult
00:49:16 | takanashikiara:  yeah so I just didn't have a good experience with Ian REO at all to be honest I
00:49:22 | takanashikiara:  I was really not feeling good because of that I I mentally I felt like shit
00:49:25 | takanashikiara:  cuz I was like man
00:49:30 | takanashikiara:  I don't know what the fuck I'm doing here at all
00:49:43 | takanashikiara:  like normally you would think you could just like stay with your guilt and rely on just being in that group thanks to being in the group you know like automatically but
00:49:48 | takanashikiara:  when the group isn't there you got to find a different group
00:49:57 | takanashikiara:  but it it worked out a few times you know like when we did that dungeon with like full and so on that that was fun
00:49:59 | takanashikiara:  had a group for that
00:50:02 | takanashikiara:  dungeon those pretty good
00:50:14 | takanashikiara:  besides that I was always I always felt like I was trying to squeeze myself into
00:50:19 | takanashikiara:  places where there was no space for me
00:50:23 | takanashikiara:  but that's anyway a long time ago
00:50:25 | takanashikiara:  and
00:50:29 | takanashikiara:  therefore I will try my best to be there every day next time
00:50:33 | takanashikiara:  every single day
00:50:35 | takanashikiara:  yep just so that I can
00:50:39 | takanashikiara:  have better chances at being part of everything
00:50:46 | takanashikiara:  yeah we already were 1 member short
00:50:52 | takanashikiara:  how the fuck what amber coin was never going to work
00:51:03 | takanashikiara:  it was never going to work like we already were a member short and then the ones that did that existed were so inactive bro
00:51:06 | takanashikiara:  me including of course
00:51:08 | takanashikiara:  bro
00:51:12 | takanashikiara:  that was really not um that was unlucky
00:51:22 | takanashikiara:  the Amber coin which made things even more difficult for me exactly
00:51:27 | takanashikiara:  people were like Amber coin is evil and I'm like fuck I'm just trying to
00:51:31 | takanashikiara:  I'm just trying to find my place man
00:51:36 | takanashikiara:  I'll get your replied
00:51:47 | takanashikiara:  say so many people are sick Rhea is sick
00:51:51 | takanashikiara:  now of course I like low-key feel like uh oh was it me but
00:51:56 | takanashikiara:  you really put sunscreen on me it's too late
00:52:02 | takanashikiara:  um but yeah so many people got sick Callie's really sick but I don't think Callie
00:52:04 | takanashikiara:  she's listening oh my God
00:52:06 | takanashikiara:  where is she
00:52:10 | takanashikiara:  whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa
00:52:16 | takanashikiara:  I don't see her in my listener list
00:52:19 | takanashikiara:  maybe she already left
00:52:27 | takanashikiara:  what Callie and Bae have 40 degrees fever
00:52:36 | takanashikiara: well I didn't have fever when I was sick at all so I think those are separate things I don't think
00:52:42 | takanashikiara:  you know I honestly yeah I don't really think I was contagious for
00:52:44 | takanashikiara:  the past days at all
00:52:52 | takanashikiara:  bro
00:52:57 | takanashikiara:  I a bit worried that like her I mean I wasn't
00:53:06 | takanashikiara:  I wasn't too out of herb that much honestly just that cut of Orchestra and by then I highly doubt I was contagious
00:53:11 | takanashikiara:  but you never know and honestly these kind of big events where everybody gets together
00:53:17 | takanashikiara:  people are all people are I guess kind of they have high chances to get sick
00:53:19 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:53:23 | takanashikiara:  mhm
00:53:28 | takanashikiara:  but for Kali like when I was talking with her when I met her yesterday
00:53:34 | takanashikiara:  she told me about her doctor visits and everything and it's just it just seems like from
00:53:41 | takanashikiara:  the doctor's PV and also my Peavey I was like just like you probably um overworked yourself obviously
00:53:45 | takanashikiara:  girl take a fucking break take a KitKat
00:53:53 | takanashikiara:  like even if you think you can take on all these tasks
00:54:01 | takanashikiara:  you you are overworked yourself constantly and maybe you should just take a break bro
00:54:06 | takanashikiara:  chill I know it's hard to take a break when there's so many tasks on your plate
00:54:12 | takanashikiara:  but it's like she's always adding even more things onto her plate and I I always tell her
00:54:14 | takanashikiara:  um
00:54:21 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:54:30 | takanashikiara:  yeah SOLO live and too fast and then all the extra things she was planning and
00:54:38 | takanashikiara:  other recordings she's having and there's like a lot going on for her
00:54:41 | takanashikiara:  constantly at all times
00:54:45 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:54:52 | takanashikiara:  I always try to tell everybody honestly not just calling but Kelly in particular I'm always like
00:55:02 | takanashikiara:  and girls need to be careful like especially if you're already sick if you already have like coughing and throat problems
00:55:07 | takanashikiara:  if you then continue to strain your throat
00:55:16 | takanashikiara:  you're going to end up and some of them did with something like pneumonia or have a however the fuk it's called
00:55:23 | takanashikiara:  and have permanent lung scarring lung damage whatsoever throat damage whatsoever
00:55:27 | takanashikiara:  when you are sick
00:55:37 | takanashikiara:  you have to rest I mean I did some streams here and there like you know that 1 time and and in winter when I had like
00:55:39 | takanashikiara:  all kinds of
00:55:44 | takanashikiara:  sicknesses in 1 go but I was very careful with
00:55:48 | takanashikiara:  what kind of stream I would allow myself to do
00:55:53 | takanashikiara:  just trying to
00:55:56 | takanashikiara:  really not use my throat at all
00:55:59 | takanashikiara:  not even small noises
00:56:04 | takanashikiara:  you have to take it seriously because this is your job
00:56:13 | takanashikiara: The Voice streaming talking singing all of that that's our job
00:56:32 | takanashikiara:  and and I know I know like it's hard to take time off and and you want to like continue streaming because you need to stay like relevant I guess or I don't know it's the right word to use
00:56:34 | takanashikiara:  uh
00:56:44 | takanashikiara:  the consequences if you don't take the situation serious enough the consequences could be surprisingly rough
00:57:02 | takanashikiara:  yeah keeping yourself in the algorithm and I I I also like always think about that too
00:57:05 | takanashikiara:  I always do and stresses me out too
00:57:17 | takanashikiara:  yeah
00:57:24 | takanashikiara:  yeah I don't know
00:57:33 | takanashikiara:  in the end it's everybody's own responsibility and we're all adults and they can make their own decisions but I'm just trying to
00:57:39 | takanashikiara: my own experience and for that from what I've seen other people go through
00:57:42 | takanashikiara:  but in the end it's like
00:57:45 | takanashikiara:  um
00:57:50 | takanashikiara:  there's such a weird comparison but like
00:58:07 | takanashikiara:  no I let's just not compare it I just people always do what they're being told not to do because they in in like any kind of situation you don't take it seriously when somebody's like oh like I experienced this and
00:58:08 | takanashikiara:  it's not that
00:58:16 | takanashikiara:  ideal like these kind of bad things can happen and people people just think it does it won't happen to themselves
00:58:20 | takanashikiara:  and they just ignore possible
00:58:23 | takanashikiara:  bad consequences
00:58:25 | takanashikiara:  in order to experience the
00:58:29 | takanashikiara:  like for example if you say to someone like
00:58:37 | takanashikiara:  um like somebody who's considering becoming a YouTuber or a singer or an idol or whatever
00:58:47 | takanashikiara:  and you're like Yeah from the outside this looks really really fun but this and this and this can happen or like what just even more generally if somebody wants to become famous and you're like
00:58:53 | takanashikiara:  now of course everybody wants to be famous but you know what you then have to deal with uh
00:58:54 | takanashikiara:  no more privacy
00:59:07 | takanashikiara:  uh huge amounts of constant people constantly having people like bashing you uh stalkers Etc maybe being abused by your label
00:59:12 | takanashikiara:  uh uh shity Cuts shity percentages
00:59:16 | takanashikiara:  Etc people will still want to go for it
00:59:19 | takanashikiara:  and then once they're in it they're like
00:59:20 | takanashikiara:  oh man
00:59:23 | takanashikiara:  this sucks
00:59:25 | takanashikiara:  but now it's too late
00:59:29 | takanashikiara:  but that's just human nature
00:59:33 | takanashikiara:  it's just human nature
00:59:39 | takanashikiara:  humans are stubborn as fuck
00:59:41 | takanashikiara:  right
00:59:58 | takanashikiara:  hindsight hindsight what is that
01:00:01 | takanashikiara:  for foresight hindsight
01:00:19 | takanashikiara: well even though I didn't think I would be as like I don't think myth would be so successful when I joined the Holo
01:00:25 | takanashikiara:  um with my life experience I think I was
01:00:33 | takanashikiara:  in any case well enough prepared or like not surprised with what came after the success
01:00:44 | takanashikiara:  so for me it's like well yeah this is just how it is this is natural all of this is natural and a natural outcome
01:00:47 | takanashikiara:  I am not surprised
01:00:54 | takanashikiara:  yeah yeah yeah
01:00:59 | takanashikiara:  so this man
01:01:02 | takanashikiara:  that's me
01:01:20 | takanashikiara:  people should listen to you
01:01:25 | takanashikiara: they should
01:01:36 | takanashikiara:  I bought something from the combini for dinner but I'm not sure if I want to eat it or if I want something else
01:01:44 | takanashikiara:  thank you kfp let's go
01:01:56 | takanashikiara:  you know I've been thinking
01:02:05 | takanashikiara:  about something since they're already like in these deep topics I don't know if I should really discuss this in a Twitter space but
01:02:07 | takanashikiara:  I've been
01:02:12 | takanashikiara:  I don't know I been thinking
01:02:14 | takanashikiara:  just I mean
01:02:16 | takanashikiara:  actually just since yesterday
01:02:19 | takanashikiara:  I've been
01:02:21 | takanashikiara:  thinking like
01:02:26 | takanashikiara:  fomo if I don't live in Japan
01:02:33 | takanashikiara:  partially just because like these past days have been a lot of fun
01:02:36 | takanashikiara:  um
01:02:38 | takanashikiara:  but also
01:02:42 | takanashikiara: I know
01:02:46 | takanashikiara:  I just have fomo
01:02:54 | takanashikiara:  so I I I've been thinking again like is it a possibility for me
01:02:56 | takanashikiara:  I don't know
01:02:59 | takanashikiara:  I mean the fact that I do have
01:03:02 | takanashikiara:  uh like I I own
01:03:10 | takanashikiara:  a home I'm not renting it so that even if I were to rent a place in Japan
01:03:23 | takanashikiara:  I'm not really losing money I'm not like you know cuz I already own it so in terms of like Financial
01:03:42 | takanashikiara:  financially well I mean it's it's still kind of questionable to me because I have so much Furniture there and like what am I going to do am I going to leave it empty would I would I rent it out would I leave it empty would I if I rent it out would I get rid of my furniture would I leave it there whatever
01:03:49 | takanashikiara:  and then in Japan I guess I would just get something furnished whatever I don't know I'm I don't know why I'm thinking about this because
01:03:56 | takanashikiara:  the only way I would do something like that again is if I was able to bring my cats
01:03:59 | takanashikiara:  and I'm
01:04:01 | takanashikiara:  thinking about
01:04:04 | takanashikiara:  again how feasible that is
01:04:13 | takanashikiara:  but I don't
01:04:14 | takanashikiara:  I don't really
01:04:19 | takanashikiara:  I don't really
01:04:22 | takanashikiara:  want to drag my cats through that
01:04:25 | takanashikiara:  even if it's just 1 day
01:04:28 | takanashikiara:  that they have to get through
01:04:36 | takanashikiara:  it's a very complicated um process
01:04:37 | takanashikiara:  that leads up to it
01:04:41 | takanashikiara:  and then
01:04:46 | takanashikiara:  I'm scared because they're not young if they were super young
01:04:51 | takanashikiara:  then a flight so long
01:04:53 | takanashikiara:  would maybe not be
01:04:58 | takanashikiara:  something to worry about but they're like 7 years old now
01:05:01 | takanashikiara:  I don't know how they would take it
01:05:23 | takanashikiara: yeah yeah I heard a bunch of stories too when I first long time ago before Holo
01:05:28 | takanashikiara:  researched all of that but then recently I hear like
01:05:30 | takanashikiara:  from you know a couple of
01:05:33 | takanashikiara:  people like friends
01:05:35 | takanashikiara:  who are
01:05:36 | takanashikiara:  like
01:05:39 | takanashikiara:  considering
01:05:41 | takanashikiara:  possibly
01:05:43 | takanashikiara:  bringing
01:05:44 | takanashikiara:  their cat
01:05:47 | takanashikiara:  on a really long distance flight
01:05:49 | takanashikiara:  and I'm like hey
01:05:53 | takanashikiara:  damn I would never
01:05:55 | takanashikiara:  I feel like I would never do that with my cats
01:05:57 | takanashikiara:  but like
01:06:01 | takanashikiara:  they don't seem so
01:06:04 | takanashikiara:  worried about it concerned about it at all
01:06:14 | takanashikiara:  that's why PewDiePie rented a whole private jet well he's got way more money than me I wish I could get a private jet for my cats yeah
01:06:20 | takanashikiara:  I was even thinking what if I get 2 business class seats like get a lot of space
01:06:24 | takanashikiara:  um
01:06:34 | takanashikiara:  but it's not just like the space because like I feel worried like what 12 13 hours in a tiny box
01:06:39 | takanashikiara:  feel bad and like the airport situation oh
01:06:46 | takanashikiara:  um
01:06:52 | takanashikiara:  yeah so I thought about that like today and yesterday and I feel like
01:06:54 | takanashikiara:  um
01:06:59 | takanashikiara:  hm I have huge promo
01:07:05 | takanashikiara:  but when I think clearly about what what am I missing out on
01:07:14 | takanashikiara:  it's not that much I think but it would make my life easier when it comes to like
01:07:17 | takanashikiara:  working
01:07:18 | takanashikiara:  in the home
01:07:22 | takanashikiara:  like not having to fly back and forth all the time
01:07:25 | takanashikiara:  um
01:07:29 | takanashikiara:  but
01:07:33 | takanashikiara:  at the same time you know I lived in Japan before
01:07:36 | takanashikiara:  I was in
01:07:37 | takanashikiara:  Halo for a while
01:07:39 | takanashikiara:  and
01:07:45 | takanashikiara:  I wouldn't really blame this on Japan I'm just blaming it on
01:07:56 | takanashikiara: the incidents that happened when I lived there a long time ago but I think I have like some trauma
01:07:59 | takanashikiara:  connected with Japan
01:08:01 | takanashikiara:  like my experience here
01:08:08 | takanashikiara:  so
01:08:12 | takanashikiara:  after I
01:08:15 | takanashikiara:  moved back to Austria
01:08:30 | takanashikiara:  I think I was always like pretty clear on not wanting to live in Japan anymore that I'm kind of done with that but then I did end up doing that extra working holiday because I always felt like that chapter needed a proper ending in my life
01:08:34 | takanashikiara:  and then it was just like completely not according to plan of course
01:08:37 | takanashikiara:  but I do think like generally
01:08:40 | takanashikiara:  I am not sure how
01:08:43 | takanashikiara:  healthy I can be mentally
01:08:48 | takanashikiara:  in a place that I could uh connect a lot of trauma with
01:08:51 | takanashikiara:  and
01:08:53 | takanashikiara:  it's just so
01:09:03 | takanashikiara:  culturally different I mean even though like I totally can blend in and adjust because I know the culture so well
01:09:11 | takanashikiara:  well I don't know it's probably healthier for me to be in Austria and I
01:09:18 | takanashikiara:  I realized that but then everybody's having so much fun here everybody's moving here I feel like
01:09:23 | takanashikiara:  half half more more than half I don't know half of the end lives in Japan what the heck
01:09:25 | takanashikiara:  and
01:09:30 | takanashikiara:  who knows who else in the future is going to move their like people keep on
01:09:32 | takanashikiara:  moving here
01:09:36 | takanashikiara:  and the more people move here the more I'm getting fomo
01:09:56 | takanashikiara:  yeah those are all legit concerns mental health and so on but then I feel like if I were to bring my cats I could withstand anything
01:10:02 | takanashikiara:  as long as I would have my cats I think I could handle
01:10:04 | takanashikiara:  like another year or so
01:10:08 | takanashikiara:  and I would have a much easier time working
01:10:12 | takanashikiara:  but honestly whatever I wouldn't do it anytime soon anyway
01:10:23 | takanashikiara:  and it's just a a really far far distant thought
01:10:26 | takanashikiara:  that has just been rekindled Now by Aldi
01:10:30 | takanashikiara:  meetups that we've been having and yeah
01:10:32 | takanashikiara:  and hearing
01:10:36 | takanashikiara:  like having conversations with people
01:11:22 | takanashikiara:  yeah that's also a thing like I don't after so many years of
01:11:27 | takanashikiara:  streaming in European prime time
01:11:30 | takanashikiara:  I
01:11:33 | takanashikiara:  I feel like
01:11:35 | takanashikiara:  I would never want to
01:11:38 | takanashikiara:  like change my streaming times
01:11:40 | takanashikiara:  to
01:11:46 | takanashikiara:  like whatever I would stream at in Japan
01:11:47 | takanashikiara:  because
01:11:52 | takanashikiara:  I don't know how to what's the right word I just feel
01:11:54 | takanashikiara:  like I don't want to fuck you guys over
01:11:58 | takanashikiara:  after you guys have been
01:12:01 | takanashikiara:  like supporting me so hard
01:12:07 | takanashikiara:  in like many of you guys making time in the weirdest
01:12:17 | takanashikiara:  times of your day many of you guys watching in the middle of the night many of you guys watching in the middle of the morning but also of course many Europeans watching
01:12:23 | takanashikiara:  uh at a convenient time for them and I'm so grateful for that
01:12:30 | takanashikiara:  that I have this these people watching me I wouldn't want to fuck you guys over by completely
01:12:33 | takanashikiara:  changing everything up
01:12:36 | takanashikiara:  so selfishly so to say
01:12:45 | takanashikiara:  um by such a life change but there's no way that I would like be able to keep up those streaming times in Japan unless I stream
01:12:57 | takanashikiara: I'm not insane I'm not going to do that that's not that would never be the norm
01:13:05 | takanashikiara:  and so that's like a big reason also why I'm thinking no I can't move their I'm not going to fuck up
01:13:07 | takanashikiara:  a fuk over all these
01:13:08 | takanashikiara:  viewers
01:13:12 | takanashikiara:  that have been having my back for so many years
01:13:30 | takanashikiara:  so even though I'm talking about this chances are extremely low anyway don't worry
01:13:32 | takanashikiara:  I'm just having fomo
01:13:35 | takanashikiara:  I just have huge fomo
01:13:42 | takanashikiara:  if I if only I could just teleport my cats or if only I wasn't such a big concern
01:13:45 | takanashikiara:  to bring them to places
01:13:51 | takanashikiara:  but I wouldn't want to leave them behind because I would never want to do that again
01:13:57 | takanashikiara:  and I wouldn't even know
01:14:03 | takanashikiara:  like I guess the last time I was really lucky being able to give my cats
01:14:06 | takanashikiara:  for 1 whole year to my roommate
01:14:10 | takanashikiara:  that's actually extremely lucky
01:14:22 | takanashikiara:  that she was even open to doing that
01:14:27 | takanashikiara:  and I had such a logical solution
01:14:34 | takanashikiara:  yeah
01:14:37 | takanashikiara:  I don't know
01:14:39 | takanashikiara:  of course I could also do it like Ena
01:14:50 | takanashikiara:  and come here for like free or whatever 6 months at a time or but that's also a long a lot of time away from my cats and at that point it's like why don't I just move there you know
01:14:54 | takanashikiara:  if I'm going to be away for that long might as well move there
01:14:58 | takanashikiara:  for a year but
01:15:00 | takanashikiara:  no it's
01:15:02 | takanashikiara:  I mean
01:15:09 | takanashikiara:  really not likely anyway I'm just I'm just telling you I have fomo
01:15:13 | takanashikiara:  I just have fomo
01:15:22 | takanashikiara:  why are you guys what
01:15:29 | takanashikiara:  what are these suggestions with
01:15:32 | takanashikiara:  herb CC
01:15:42 | takanashikiara:  I'm not alone that's that's really not helping
01:15:46 | takanashikiara:  me having 2 more members on my continent
01:15:51 | takanashikiara:  doesn't really change much in the end
01:16:01 | takanashikiara:  that that's not no no
01:16:05 | takanashikiara:  it's not changing much
01:16:11 | takanashikiara:  cuz the farmer is because Japan is where the parties at
01:16:21 | takanashikiara:  and where
01:16:24 | takanashikiara:  work would be generally easier also
01:16:30 | takanashikiara:  because then I wouldn't have to do these 12 13 14 our flights constantly
01:16:32 | takanashikiara:  yeah
01:16:47 | takanashikiara:  lemonade make lemonade out of lemons yo that's so funny you say that because just today I read a tweet that lemons are not natural
01:16:52 | takanashikiara:  so uh like we made humans made lemons
01:17:05 | takanashikiara:  by Crossing other fruits and so the the the phrase saying that says um when life gives you lemons when life gives you lemons is
01:17:12 | takanashikiara:  like 1 of the most inaccurate unrealistic phrases that has been absolutely overused
01:17:13 | takanashikiara:  by people
01:17:16 | takanashikiara:  because lemons yeah they're not real
01:17:25 | takanashikiara:  life never gave us lemons we made lemons so it's so fucked up nobody knows that now you know
01:17:37 | takanashikiara:  but what we could say though is when life doesn't give you lemons just make it yourself that could be quite motivating
01:17:41 | takanashikiara:  when life doesn't just throw something at you
01:17:43 | takanashikiara:  on its own
01:17:48 | takanashikiara:  you are the 1 who can make it themselves because we made lemons
01:17:55 | takanashikiara:  beautiful and with that I should probably leave it at that
01:17:59 | takanashikiara: I should probably leave the space at that
01:18:05 | takanashikiara:  cuz that was beautiful
01:18:07 | takanashikiara:  what a beautiful ending
01:18:20 | takanashikiara:  sorry for
01:18:26 | takanashikiara:  dragging you into my fomo just don't just forget about it just don't worry about it
01:18:32 | takanashikiara:  I I I really just wanted to tell you how fucking
01:18:37 | takanashikiara:  hype you guys should be for my upcoming life and how scared I am
01:18:41 | takanashikiara:  because I still have so many coreos to learn
01:18:45 | takanashikiara:  yeah be
01:18:48 | takanashikiara:  so wish me luck
01:18:51 | takanashikiara:  and look forward to it although
01:18:57 | takanashikiara:  although recording is soon but the actual live stream will be
01:18:59 | takanashikiara:  oh a while later
01:19:01 | takanashikiara:  but it will be
01:19:03 | takanashikiara:  probably
01:19:07 | takanashikiara:  time time probably will pass quickly so
01:19:13 | takanashikiara:  yeah I'll continue
01:19:20 | takanashikiara:  focusing on the dances I have dance lesson tomorrow with a with a teacher
01:19:32 | takanashikiara:  like before Christmas yeah I already kind of leaked it in this Twitter space anyway
01:19:39 | takanashikiara:  so don't don't question it you already know
01:19:52 | takanashikiara:  no no more Mirage shorts
01:19:58 | takanashikiara:  you joined late is your thing
01:19:59 | takanashikiara:  is you okay
01:20:02 | takanashikiara:  choo choo
01:20:21 | takanashikiara:  yeah I know there's a good reasons and bad reasons like pros and cons I know that's why it's kind of tearing me apart just thinking about it and that's why I probably should just not do it
01:20:28 | takanashikiara:  damn it you can't have it all you just can't have it all
01:20:34 | takanashikiara:  it's rough if only I just like lived in a closer country
01:20:42 | takanashikiara:  where the flight wouldn't be so long if only I lived like an Indonesia if only I was Holo ID
01:20:45 | takanashikiara:  this decision wouldn't be so hard to make
01:20:47 | takanashikiara:  or maybe it would be because
01:20:55 | takanashikiara:  moving to Japan is probably not the smartest economical decision for me if I were an ID
01:20:56 | takanashikiara:  I don't know
01:21:00 | takanashikiara:  but all these IFS
01:21:02 | takanashikiara:  are whatever
01:21:10 | takanashikiara:  wow a whole idea confirmed
01:21:15 | takanashikiara:  I love them I love them so much
01:21:19 | takanashikiara:  how does marrying Raina solve any of this
01:21:31 | takanashikiara:  yeah I'm always surprised realizing or like I was surprised when I realized how long the flight actually is from ID to
01:21:32 | takanashikiara:  Japan
01:21:47 | takanashikiara:  I wouldn't become Hollow ID by marrying Raina that's not how that works
01:21:54 | takanashikiara: unfortunately
01:22:08 | takanashikiara:  marrying rain is a good idea well you guys are pushing for something
01:22:15 | takanashikiara:  trying to make it seem like it solves all my problems
01:22:28 | takanashikiara:  get out of here get out of here I'm going to get out of here goodbye guys I will talk to you guys soon I'm trying to
01:22:30 | takanashikiara:  not lose control
01:22:33 | takanashikiara:  I'm trying to learn my dancers
01:22:35 | takanashikiara:  which mean luck
01:22:36 | takanashikiara:  give me some time
01:22:38 | takanashikiara:  please please
01:22:44 | takanashikiara:  thank you for watching thank you for listening
01:22:55 | takanashikiara:  thank you thank you
01:23:00 | takanashikiara:  thank you wow
01:23:04 | takanashikiara: and in German
01:23:06 | takanashikiara:  we say
01:23:13 | takanashikiara:  which most of you guys will not know how to write that
01:23:17 | takanashikiara:  but it's like the equivalent
01:23:19 | takanashikiara:  of
01:23:26 | takanashikiara:  seeing you again but like hearing you again wow
01:23:29 | takanashikiara:  whoa whoa alvida here
01:23:36 | takanashikiara:  good job to the ones who did it
01:23:39 | takanashikiara:  so proud of you
01:23:43 | takanashikiara:  I'm freaking chicken
01:23:45 | takanashikiara:  chicken
01:23:51 | takanashikiara:  mind blown Hotel Trivago
01:24:01 | takanashikiara:  goodbye
01:24:03 | takanashikiara:  good now right
01:24:06 | takanashikiara:  yay