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00:02:28 | ceciliaimgreen: you've never left I don't think that's how
00:02:33 | ceciliaimgreen: it okay um I'm here between your space hello
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00:02:41 | ceciliaimgreen: okay I want to is the audio coming from my phone
00:02:51 | ceciliaimgreen: blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah oh I'm going to put the phone to my mouth and then I'm going to put it away blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah is it
00:02:54 | ceciliaimgreen: or was it oh is it
00:02:57 | ceciliaimgreen: oh is it the
00:03:00 | ceciliaimgreen: why is it the headset what is better audio
00:03:05 | ceciliaimgreen: oh it's like I can hear her
00:03:11 | ceciliaimgreen: it's fine to have my crazy list the crazy
00:03:15 | ceciliaimgreen: crazy you're scared it's a bit behind
00:03:17 | ceciliaimgreen: oh I mean
00:03:20 | ceciliaimgreen: about to play shit versus what's beyond just so
00:03:23 | ceciliaimgreen: audio is fine
00:03:28 | ceciliaimgreen: that's the same so not the fuk okay well welcome in everyone thank you very much
00:03:37 | ceciliaimgreen: today we crash out as I crash I'm going to walk while talking because I'm so mad
00:03:45 | ceciliaimgreen: let me close the window so I don't bother the stupid fucking ass dumb ass stupid
00:03:46 | ceciliaimgreen: dumb ass stupid
00:04:21 | ceciliaimgreen: you can take as you can tell I was gonna do a stream but I didn't work out I am a phone Walker so when I'm on the phone which this basically is if you think about it I walk all over the place or when I'm thinking I walk or when I do anything I walk because I don't walk well I don't well I when I wake up don't want then I'm sitting because I have to be on the desktop but usually if I'm on the phone I walk because I'm thinking and it makes me help think and today I was out and about all day going
00:04:32 | ceciliaimgreen: and then I was like okay how much time do I have ooh okay if I'm if I'm back at the apartment by 7:30 I have 1 and a half hours
00:04:38 | ceciliaimgreen: after I have my laptop with me the other day because I didn't sleep here last night and then I
00:04:41 | ceciliaimgreen: let me put this to the side
00:04:54 | ceciliaimgreen: waiting music in the Twitter space relax me now I'm angry again um and then I
00:05:03 | ceciliaimgreen: the other day I had the laptop so I had a lot of issues with e33 last time right so I was like why what's going on what's Happening
00:05:18 | ceciliaimgreen: and I think what I noticed what that there was like a weird delay between the audio and the keyboard input but my keyboard had broken very recently only the space bar but only the left side of the space bar so I was like oh okay maybe it's the keyboard
00:05:55 | ceciliaimgreen: I also use a switch input which I've used Forever by the way it's never had any issues I use a switch input between my 2 PCS because when it's connected to both PCS I can switch between it and I can I have 2 keyboards but 1 is like kind of shitty just you know I just use it for streaming and controlling OBS and the other 1 is my good gaming good good good good good keyboard but it's okay because I ordered a new keyboard the same variety but with different switches I love these switches they're
00:05:56 | ceciliaimgreen: I've ever bought
00:06:00 | ceciliaimgreen: so I was like why is it struggling with this game
00:06:06 | ceciliaimgreen: so I tested the game profusely profusely on his own again
00:06:07 | ceciliaimgreen: it was working
00:06:13 | ceciliaimgreen: the keyboard cuz I was like what if there's some weird keyboard delay I was looking fuck
00:06:18 | ceciliaimgreen: the audio was fucking fine and was doing the was not doing the wrong weird stuttering the other day
00:06:21 | ceciliaimgreen: so then I come here
00:06:39 | ceciliaimgreen: at like 7:40 because obviously that was stupid traffic so I'm a little bit late and I come here and I'm like oh everything's fine I have so much time so I set up all that stupid cables again because there's like a million to my cables so I set it up it's fine and I set up the capture card and everything's fine and I stopped playing the game
00:06:41 | ceciliaimgreen: and then I noticed okay
00:06:45 | ceciliaimgreen: they're still weird input delay it's like it's not working
00:07:03 | ceciliaimgreen: so I changed the settings in the in the in the you know I changed the stuff to lower Resolute not resolution lower quality but then it like starts frame dropping like crazy and then even if it was working on the laptop it wasn't capturing it properly I thought it was cutting off
00:07:17 | ceciliaimgreen: and then I was figuring out okay I got this I can just use the audio from the TV screen like from the screen instead of using it from the laptop which was working
00:07:21 | ceciliaimgreen: so everything was working
00:07:24 | ceciliaimgreen: everything looks working
00:07:26 | ceciliaimgreen: and then I capture card to stop working
00:07:33 | ceciliaimgreen: so I think my theory is okay I have 3 theories a I am cursed
00:07:43 | ceciliaimgreen: my second theory is now hear me out guys my second
00:08:00 | ceciliaimgreen: my second theory is um for some reason there's too many devices and I don't know the because my my the streaming left the streaming computer that I have been using is the same computer I've been using for like 4 months now at home
00:08:02 | ceciliaimgreen: so it works right like
00:08:11 | ceciliaimgreen: I also used very similar setup in Japan and then I worked as well so it's not the it's not the hardware that's really the issue but
00:08:19 | ceciliaimgreen: it might be the screen or I did the capture card maybe the capture card is broken
00:08:30 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe it's the capture card on the screen or the USB switch or it's just too many things that I connected to the left up and the laptop's like I can't literally
00:08:41 | ceciliaimgreen: or something like that and then my third theory is that um I mean Theory C
00:08:43 | ceciliaimgreen: is that I'm cursed
00:08:47 | ceciliaimgreen: I'm going to lay down on the floor
00:08:50 | ceciliaimgreen: and I'm very sorry
00:08:52 | ceciliaimgreen: because I really wanted to stream
00:08:58 | ceciliaimgreen: and I want you to think to myself oh I'm not going to cancel but maybe I should maybe it's just not meant to be
00:09:04 | ceciliaimgreen: but then I thought you know what I've been playing shadowverse every time I'm in the train might as well play shadowverse
00:09:17 | ceciliaimgreen: and now I think my internet died I don't know like when I tested it it goes between being like yeah we have a 100 bigger bite trust us and then it goes down and then it's like no I don't believe you
00:09:18 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know
00:09:29 | ceciliaimgreen: um anyways I apologize for the crash out I might I might delete this Twitter space afterwards I'll think about it no I'm sitting laying on my belly
00:09:39 | ceciliaimgreen: okay I'm fine but other than that I had really good food today it's not a spider
00:09:48 | ceciliaimgreen: that is a spider in the corner it's fine I don't mind it's okay it just needs to live it just wants to be free just like me
00:09:52 | ceciliaimgreen: and then
00:09:53 | ceciliaimgreen: what else
00:09:58 | ceciliaimgreen: I
00:10:04 | ceciliaimgreen: I spent 1 night at my parents that was nice they're sweet
00:10:07 | ceciliaimgreen: but also I had a bunch of meetings and they're like
00:10:09 | ceciliaimgreen: they're like
00:10:23 | ceciliaimgreen: literally can't I got work to do I got things to do you got places to be they're like yeah but
00:10:24 | ceciliaimgreen: but we have a car
00:10:34 | ceciliaimgreen: and they're very sweet because in their eyes I think they think as long as they
00:10:42 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know I I don't know because they know that I'm working right now like usually when I was at them it's like vacation right so then we can do whatever
00:10:45 | ceciliaimgreen: but they're very nice very sweet very cute
00:10:48 | ceciliaimgreen: um
00:10:53 | ceciliaimgreen: I got places to be I got a water home word to see it's true
00:11:03 | ceciliaimgreen: and then and then yeah I've been going to doctors it's been experiences of the experiences beautiful and wonderful and negative and positive
00:11:04 | ceciliaimgreen: and I've seen
00:11:12 | ceciliaimgreen: I did spend 1 afternoon with my parents and we went to Christmas markets I love Christmas markets
00:11:14 | ceciliaimgreen: I could go to Christmas
00:11:25 | ceciliaimgreen: just give me specific Christmas m m snacks my favorite Christmas Market snack size follows this next I mean you can probably find this in other places as well number 1 um
00:11:29 | ceciliaimgreen: actually I don't know which order
00:11:32 | ceciliaimgreen: I really like hot like maroons
00:11:50 | ceciliaimgreen: so they're they're like baked or something fried and fire I don't know burned and then they and then they go they're hot and they put them in paper bags and then you peel it and then you burn yourself on it at least 5 times and then you eat them and they're delicious
00:11:52 | ceciliaimgreen: and then
00:11:55 | ceciliaimgreen: they also like uh uh um
00:12:03 | ceciliaimgreen: which is kind of like hash browns but not really they're kind of like hash brownie potato pancakes and you usually have them with apples
00:12:07 | ceciliaimgreen: which is delicious and then I also like
00:12:12 | ceciliaimgreen: which I have here a bag actually of Nicole like burnt
00:12:14 | ceciliaimgreen: almonds but they actually like
00:12:25 | ceciliaimgreen: just almonds and then they put around a sugary coat and then they caramelize it and it's really hard but it's yummy also although this pack kind of too hard like it's almost like
00:12:30 | ceciliaimgreen: every time you put in your mouth you a little bit worried you might break your tooth I'm going to eat 1 now
00:12:34 | ceciliaimgreen: crunchy
00:12:44 | ceciliaimgreen: hope I'm not smudging into your ear I need water Where's my water
00:12:55 | ceciliaimgreen: so yeah I had a lot of nice snacks and I really like winter and um Christmas and um
00:12:58 | ceciliaimgreen: what else what else did I do
00:13:02 | ceciliaimgreen: crashed out multiple times
00:13:05 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know it's just so frustrating
00:13:08 | ceciliaimgreen: someone thinks to
00:13:15 | ceciliaimgreen: but when you traveling I can't there's no real there's no real solution I have
00:13:34 | ceciliaimgreen: like some friends that I can stay at and I can like borrow their setup for a day or 2 but I can't stay there for like weeks you know that's kind of weird it's kind of rude me screaming in the middle of the night they're like oh I have to go get up tomorrow at 7 a.m.
00:13:42 | ceciliaimgreen: and um yeah I don't really feel comfortable with like because there's like noise noise noise noise and stuff so
00:13:45 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't I can't stay on my parents
00:13:58 | ceciliaimgreen: so I can't really stay anywhere for too long so I can't really get a proper 100% setup so I was really banking on this working and I mean it worked kind of some of the days
00:14:03 | ceciliaimgreen: I think when I just started work but that was with a different screen maybe the screen is the problem
00:14:08 | ceciliaimgreen: 33
00:14:17 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe the screen is the problem I bought this like no-name garbage streets freaking screen from current physically from a store
00:14:19 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe I should send it back
00:14:31 | ceciliaimgreen: and when I say send it back I mean walk there and give it back I don't want this give me back my money it was really cheap maybe I shouldn't have skipped out on the screen but I'm not going to get take the screen with me so it felt like a waste investing a lot of money
00:14:36 | ceciliaimgreen: okay
00:14:40 | ceciliaimgreen: I'm an adult
00:14:43 | ceciliaimgreen: I got this
00:14:47 | ceciliaimgreen: but yeah so I feel bad but I don't know everyone's been doing well
00:14:51 | ceciliaimgreen: I'll talk to the fixing things if I can
00:14:52 | ceciliaimgreen: um
00:14:55 | ceciliaimgreen: it's Christmas soon so that's nice
00:15:03 | ceciliaimgreen: and I like
00:15:11 | ceciliaimgreen: oh yeah we're doing the what's it called video game award watch along tonight hopefully my stuff will work until then
00:15:18 | ceciliaimgreen: but I don't really need much I just need to be their worst case I'm a PNG
00:15:18 | ceciliaimgreen: to be on call
00:15:19 | ceciliaimgreen: with my phone
00:15:25 | ceciliaimgreen: just a week away yeah cucumber
00:15:27 | ceciliaimgreen: cucumber
00:15:28 | ceciliaimgreen: um
00:15:34 | ceciliaimgreen: any special plans for Christmas I'm going to eat a lot of food I think
00:15:36 | ceciliaimgreen: so much food
00:15:39 | ceciliaimgreen: and uh
00:15:40 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah
00:15:43 | ceciliaimgreen: so the rest of the week
00:15:50 | ceciliaimgreen: tonight is the thingy and then oh my God what is my setup doesn't work for Saturday
00:15:54 | ceciliaimgreen: I'll figure something out
00:15:58 | ceciliaimgreen: and then Sunday is a regular Street
00:16:04 | ceciliaimgreen: I'll just place it over the reason I was going to play Shadow versus it's because it's
00:16:14 | ceciliaimgreen: installed on my main PC and it's not as heavy as like most other games so I could just run it while running obvious but you know I guess the world hates everything
00:16:16 | ceciliaimgreen: and specifically me right now
00:16:23 | ceciliaimgreen: I just saw something on the floor
00:16:28 | ceciliaimgreen: Do You Believe In The e33 Sweep I mean what other games
00:16:30 | ceciliaimgreen: this came out this year
00:16:37 | ceciliaimgreen: what games came
00:16:40 | ceciliaimgreen: out in 2025
00:16:44 | ceciliaimgreen: ma is yes I do believe in the e33 sweep
00:16:48 | ceciliaimgreen: um wild okay I mean what else was pretty good
00:16:51 | ceciliaimgreen: silk song was nice night rain
00:16:59 | ceciliaimgreen: they were belly and like huge releases this year
00:17:01 | ceciliaimgreen: which is weird I don't know why
00:17:09 | ceciliaimgreen: at least know like new new games maybe like we make them stuff but
00:17:13 | ceciliaimgreen: that's crazy that's not that many what about 2024
00:17:23 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe that's just how it is these days
00:17:27 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe that's just not that many big releases in general
00:17:30 | ceciliaimgreen: since
00:17:37 | ceciliaimgreen: but there's a lot of indie games that come out each year and some of them are crazy good and sweep sweep the floor
00:17:42 | ceciliaimgreen: I want to watch the the what's it called the categories are
00:17:47 | ceciliaimgreen: game awards know me 2025
00:17:50 | ceciliaimgreen: nominees
00:17:52 | ceciliaimgreen: nominees
00:17:59 | ceciliaimgreen: join the live event know I'm wondering if she doesn't know me more ways to know it's show me the money where the nominees
00:18:02 | ceciliaimgreen: where
00:18:11 | ceciliaimgreen: no knees all Game of the Year oh it's just not Game of the Year me we don't see the nominees yet
00:18:16 | ceciliaimgreen: except dollars or December 11th
00:18:29 | ceciliaimgreen: I mean what's going to win goy
00:18:41 | ceciliaimgreen: I think it's going to be I just think there's a recency bias it's going to be E3 well Silk songs also really good
00:18:57 | ceciliaimgreen: I do wonder I do Wonder well Amy um that's going to happen very soon so hopefully you're looking forward to that I'm going to be on needle stream which is um with bear and uh Callie Callie some
00:19:01 | ceciliaimgreen: and uh
00:19:08 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah other than that I've been having this stuff on my head and it's an evil thought
00:19:14 | ceciliaimgreen: I haven't decided if I'm going to go for it but I've thought to myself since since I started here I haven't really ever
00:19:21 | ceciliaimgreen: well I mean I did PC which was like a huge investment I guess but I have never
00:19:23 | ceciliaimgreen: gotten like
00:19:29 | ceciliaimgreen: something you know for myself so thinking but I've been having this evil thought
00:19:33 | ceciliaimgreen: it's manifested into my head it's like buried itself deep in my head
00:19:41 | ceciliaimgreen: and I'm thinking of buying a violin violin because mine is kind of it's It's seen better days a little bit
00:19:45 | ceciliaimgreen: I've been thinking about that
00:19:57 | ceciliaimgreen: and I'm going to be traveling to a city soon that is where my original violin maker is so then I could go there and check it out
00:20:00 | ceciliaimgreen: but I don't know because I was like oh
00:20:04 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't play it that much so it's not really worth it but if everything goes well
00:20:06 | ceciliaimgreen: and I fixed my hands
00:20:15 | ceciliaimgreen: and I could play again again the more again but it's a little bit of this like ah I feel bad
00:20:18 | ceciliaimgreen: feel bad
00:20:21 | ceciliaimgreen: but I don't know
00:20:26 | ceciliaimgreen: it seems like I don't
00:20:40 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't have like a car or anything like that oh my God a proper car my parents like a car bro
00:21:05 | ceciliaimgreen: garbage oh car that they bought many years ago and every year it breaks and they bring it to the repair shop and then they repair it and the money that they've spent on repairing the stupid ass car at this point it's like more money than it probably costs to begin with right and I'm like just you got to you got to get a new not a they can still get a used car and they would never get a new car I don't get any new comics and he says
00:22:00 | ceciliaimgreen: buying a privately which makes sense you know people and blah blah so then we go to the dealerships and then they're like ah okay let's look around and I'm like no you go to the salesman talk to them and then you tell them exactly what you want and then they give you something or they try selling you a car and they're like yeah but we don't know what you want exactly that's why you have to go to the assessment so what they made me do is they waited they they they went there and then they stood o
00:22:08 | ceciliaimgreen: salesman was like oh is it come for you and I'm like no it's my parents
00:22:09 | ceciliaimgreen: no it's
00:22:21 | ceciliaimgreen: oh oh oh oh you want that no I don't even have a driver's license it's okay and then they finally found a car
00:22:55 | ceciliaimgreen: and then they well not they didn't find a car but they found 1 that was interesting to them you know it was the right price class and everything and then the the salesman is like oh you want to do to my mom because she drives mostly and then he's like do you want to do a test drive and she and she's like no no it's okay no no no I don't have to and I'm like if you want to try cars you're going to have to try cars but she keeps going no okay okay okay okay okay yeah and then my dad says no you d
00:23:09 | ceciliaimgreen: you have to buy the car even if you don't end up actually buying it you have to try the car otherwise you can't make a decision and then it went so far that we like set in in the car with the salesman and my dad didn't even
00:23:18 | ceciliaimgreen: stupid car and then they went on a drive for 10 minutes and my dad was just standing on his own in the cold confused what was happening
00:23:28 | ceciliaimgreen: they triggered me so much oh my God I love them very dearly they're very sweet but um
00:23:30 | ceciliaimgreen: oh my God
00:23:42 | ceciliaimgreen: it's like it's like it's like children it's like tomb 2 2 old children at this point he was just standing many more G in the corner
00:23:44 | ceciliaimgreen: they're so
00:23:56 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't understand I mean I I I don't know it's I obviously I know that some people are afraid of talking to sales personnel and I also know that some salesperson that can be kind of rude
00:24:04 | ceciliaimgreen: you know or dismissive especially when I don't know when you're old I don't know it's it's hard to to judge right and I'm I don't think it's
00:24:09 | ceciliaimgreen: wrong to be shy but they're not shy they're just like
00:24:22 | ceciliaimgreen: they really want a new car but they don't really want to go through the hassle of looking for a new car they want to magically get a new car right
00:24:33 | ceciliaimgreen: but they don't know what car they don't know what brand they don't know they don't know anything or they know is it should be kind of small they don't even know if they want an automatic or know they're like
00:24:39 | ceciliaimgreen: oh well it would be nice if it was automatic but it doesn't have to be automatic
00:24:42 | ceciliaimgreen: I am out my mother's like oh wow
00:24:47 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe it could be automatic and then I say but I thought you don't like automatic yeah well
00:24:49 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know
00:25:11 | ceciliaimgreen: I've never driven automatic yeah okay what do you want me to do about it well then the car that they tested they they they they my dad was outside and then they drove you know around and then when she when we came back and then afterwards when we were walking back he says know that car was really loud I think I don't think that's a good car
00:25:13 | ceciliaimgreen: replacing that
00:25:13 | ceciliaimgreen: awful
00:25:15 | ceciliaimgreen: literally
00:25:21 | ceciliaimgreen: what do you mean really loud it has a motor of course it's going to be
00:25:34 | ceciliaimgreen: it's crazy decision runs in the family they are on a completely different level they're like the type of people my parents are the type of people that will not fix anything
00:25:36 | ceciliaimgreen: even
00:25:39 | ceciliaimgreen: like the 4
00:25:53 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know how long my brother and I we we we bickered at we get along fine and we got along fine even then but we fought a lot when we were children we fought a lot and we would break things even after children like in 2
00:25:56 | ceciliaimgreen: 2 long to be proud of
00:26:04 | ceciliaimgreen: we would still physically fight and we broke like doors and stuff and so there was 1 door that just didn't close
00:26:13 | ceciliaimgreen: and then they kept going oh we should fix it we should fix it we should fix it yeah we'll do it we'll do it and it took them like I don't know 8 years
00:26:35 | ceciliaimgreen: part of the door like the outside part of the door was just the the the the door itself
00:26:37 | ceciliaimgreen: oh my God
00:26:44 | ceciliaimgreen: or they said oh we have to we have to fix our kitchen we're going to renovate our kitchen and it took them like
00:26:49 | ceciliaimgreen: also 5 years to finally renovate the kitchen
00:26:53 | ceciliaimgreen: so long with this car and then when
00:26:55 | ceciliaimgreen: I saw them the other
00:27:08 | ceciliaimgreen: I've been seeing them like in between here and there and then I I asked them they said oh we don't have a car right now and I said oh what happened it broke down and I said oh okay so you want to get a new car yeah no we put it to the
00:27:13 | ceciliaimgreen: we brought it to the car repair shop and I'm like no
00:27:38 | ceciliaimgreen: you have to let go stop investing money into this broken down dumbass and the thing is like they hate that car right they they hate the way it drives they hate they hate it it's a very common car from the early I don't know I don't know that much about cars but I know every single person I've ever talked to that has had that stupid car has complained about that car like it breaks and it dies and it sucks
00:27:46 | ceciliaimgreen: people are starting to do a New Year's explosive thingies
00:27:50 | ceciliaimgreen: that old Voice still got life in it
00:27:51 | ceciliaimgreen: still now
00:27:58 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know why they still have it I it's like this it's it's this
00:28:06 | ceciliaimgreen: if it ain't broken don't fix it but it goes to if it's broken fix it and I keep it forever until it's broken again and then fix it
00:28:10 | ceciliaimgreen: so bad
00:28:12 | ceciliaimgreen: um
00:28:17 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah so they've been going through that and I trying to help
00:28:19 | ceciliaimgreen: cuz
00:28:22 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know
00:28:24 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know they just
00:28:27 | ceciliaimgreen: we get along
00:28:30 | ceciliaimgreen: pretty well
00:28:38 | ceciliaimgreen: but it's I get rich but it's like crazy and I don't I like them a lot but we don't spend that much time together
00:28:43 | ceciliaimgreen: because I get right to be very very easy then I mean nowadays I've been pretty busy
00:28:48 | ceciliaimgreen: and I don't live super close to them so I can't just visit them like here and there
00:28:49 | ceciliaimgreen: easily
00:28:54 | ceciliaimgreen: but maybe maybe I should I don't know I try it
00:28:57 | ceciliaimgreen: and now obviously they really liked that car
00:29:06 | ceciliaimgreen: and then with positive about it and then my mom Googled negative things about car XYZ and then she got a bunch of negative obviously
00:29:09 | ceciliaimgreen: if you Google that
00:29:13 | ceciliaimgreen: and then she starts going well a lot of people online say
00:29:24 | ceciliaimgreen: that this this car makes this issue and this issue no I don't think we should get that car no I think it's actually really bad oh it's going it's so bad no we shouldn't get that
00:29:34 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah yeah I was bound to happen yeah it's okay so I'll still
00:29:37 | ceciliaimgreen: I just have to push I guess
00:29:58 | ceciliaimgreen: because there's so miserable because usually my mom because of the car not in general because my usually my mother she takes the car to work and now she has to depend on the Dodge band and the Dodge band is the most vile evil thing in the world and every day she complies oh I had to wait there was 20 30 minutes ago
00:30:05 | ceciliaimgreen: but then they haven't the car broke down 3 weeks ago
00:30:09 | ceciliaimgreen: and they didn't go to a cardio ship a single time
00:30:17 | ceciliaimgreen: until I drag them to 1 it's like obviously you're not going to you're not going to get a new car if you don't go to the cash shop
00:30:22 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah
00:30:24 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah
00:30:28 | ceciliaimgreen: this week the sweet people
00:30:33 | ceciliaimgreen: but they're so
00:30:37 | ceciliaimgreen: they range between me specifically all the time
00:30:44 | ceciliaimgreen: oh my God yeah can you see my battery fine yeah my battery is fine
00:30:51 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah I mean you think you might think I'm bad at like making decisions but they're 10 million times worse
00:30:58 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know I feel bad because I want to be more present for them and you know help them I think it's
00:31:06 | ceciliaimgreen: I do think it's hard for old people in we live in a society we literally live in a society I think it's hard for old people to like
00:31:10 | ceciliaimgreen: stay up to date with technology and everything
00:31:15 | ceciliaimgreen: and I mean they're doing fine they're using phones they're using the internet
00:31:24 | ceciliaimgreen: my automaton Papa he like looks up recipes online and then he cooks them and it's like whoa whoa technology is crazy
00:31:30 | ceciliaimgreen: but I think it's very hard to navigate because the last time they bought a car
00:31:56 | ceciliaimgreen: and um retail I think that's been a huge shift obviously because of online shopping with retail a lot of retail I don't know how it is in other countries but at least in Germany a lot of Staff don't really like they don't really care anymore you know it's like oh you come to the store you just going to look at it and then you're going to buy it online anyways and
00:32:20 | ceciliaimgreen: I think the it's not I in Germany it's never been this like oh the customized King you if the customers annoying he's not they're not King but you know you still want to sell a product and nowadays because it has changed a lot I don't think I don't know I feel like old people kind of struggle sometimes unless they're very tech-savvy but if they don't have a job that has to do with tech
00:32:24 | ceciliaimgreen: you know if they do like physical labor or something like that but it can be kind of hard
00:32:32 | ceciliaimgreen: and then the customer service isn't as personal yeah yeah yeah yeah it's those type of things you know
00:32:33 | ceciliaimgreen: where
00:32:38 | ceciliaimgreen: I think my parents struggle a bit because back then the last time they bought a car
00:32:43 | ceciliaimgreen: it's really long ago and I think they like there was this incentive
00:32:52 | ceciliaimgreen: you know which happened sometimes in in you know oh we buy this car and then you get this new car I think it was new the car they got actually
00:32:57 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't remember I think it was 2 I was too little and then um
00:33:10 | ceciliaimgreen: now they look up they try looking it up online and then obviously you can find things but it's really hard to differentiate okay what's private what's like a natural store where you can go to
00:33:15 | ceciliaimgreen: and yeah I think they struggle because they kind of
00:33:18 | ceciliaimgreen: they're not with the times as much
00:33:25 | ceciliaimgreen: um no they're not retired it's not both of them but they still
00:33:28 | ceciliaimgreen: I mean my mom's also
00:33:32 | ceciliaimgreen: literally German isn't her first language so it's so so hard obviously
00:33:43 | ceciliaimgreen: but I don't know I try to help well sometimes at least in this case I tried well I will keep trying I will I will force them I will force them to buy a car
00:33:52 | ceciliaimgreen: and I'm hope it will work but I wish I would wish for them to like manage these things on their own which you know would be healthier
00:33:55 | ceciliaimgreen: and I think my ultimate brother usually
00:34:00 | ceciliaimgreen: helps out how how the things because he lives next to them
00:34:03 | ceciliaimgreen: or not next to them but very close to them
00:34:07 | ceciliaimgreen: but he's been busy busy
00:34:11 | ceciliaimgreen: busy cuz he got a job a new job wow
00:34:14 | ceciliaimgreen: give them a car know they would kill me
00:34:26 | ceciliaimgreen: they're the type of people like if you try paying for something at the restaurant it's like a struggle you know it's like a fight almost you have to really you have to either be sneaky about it
00:34:36 | ceciliaimgreen: or you have to I don't know fight even if it's just fast food 10 10 year old
00:34:38 | ceciliaimgreen: no no save your money
00:34:41 | ceciliaimgreen: no I'm like no I can't I
00:34:54 | ceciliaimgreen: the typical parents yeah yeah I wasn't even thinking about it you know um not but I I I I think it's a bit uh
00:34:59 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't think I mean it really depends on the person but for my my my parents
00:35:03 | ceciliaimgreen: I think they would feel what's the word
00:35:07 | ceciliaimgreen: oh my God
00:35:10 | ceciliaimgreen: not belittle but
00:35:15 | ceciliaimgreen: oh my God not pay patronized patronized
00:35:24 | ceciliaimgreen: gets his own also I wouldn't want I wouldn't want to ever buy something like that which is pretty expensive
00:35:34 | ceciliaimgreen: if I'm not 100% sure if that specific model is what they want but since they don't even know what they want it's not like I could like do it anyways
00:35:35 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah
00:35:38 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah I think it's patronized yeah
00:35:48 | ceciliaimgreen: if you share the gift now no no no they're very very stingy
00:35:52 | ceciliaimgreen: well not stingy but they're very safe and scared
00:35:56 | ceciliaimgreen: scared of money things so I don't think I think they would kill me
00:36:15 | ceciliaimgreen: paying for something that they need in a plane to buying you know like let's say I I you know I buy them a while we buy them a holiday like my ultimate brother and it's like a trip or something
00:36:19 | ceciliaimgreen: that's a present but a car I think that's a bit
00:36:26 | ceciliaimgreen: it's a bit much for them I don't think they would handle it very well but my gift can be my presence
00:36:35 | ceciliaimgreen: in carrying them to the shop and forcing them forcing them to try out cars hopefully hopefully it'll be okay
00:36:50 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah no I mean I like my parents and they're very sweet but they're rich with me me personally and I can't
00:37:04 | ceciliaimgreen: I think I get too easily triggered and then I I don't I don't I don't I think when I was a smaller automaton I'm gonna delete this space by the way this is way too
00:37:29 | ceciliaimgreen: way too personal anyways I think back then was what I did we had you know I was a bit of a that was a bit of a trouble kid like not not in a criminal way but in a you know I didn't I didn't want to I didn't want I didn't I didn't oh my God it's like you know that video from what is it called Riverdale where jacket goes
00:37:40 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't want to fit in I don't I'm I'm weird I'm not normal I don't fit in have you ever seen me with this stupid hat on know right
00:38:11 | ceciliaimgreen: no but I I was a bit of a it was a bit of a trouble trouble kid trouble some kid and um so we had some issues but since I moved out it's been really good and it's been healthy and it's been communicative and it's been nice but when I spent a lot of time like sitting when we sit sit on top of each other for 2 months too too long then old patterns 3 surface and then I get triggered I'm I'm calm nowadays and I'm like okay it's just how it is but it makes me
00:38:12 | ceciliaimgreen: may not want to like
00:38:21 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah I don't know not you know I can I can I can love them and still see thoughts I think in my opinion
00:38:26 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah I was a bit of a brat know I was not not like in that sense
00:38:33 | ceciliaimgreen: if it didn't but you had better forms of did he
00:38:35 | ceciliaimgreen: good for him
00:38:38 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah
00:38:50 | ceciliaimgreen: anyways they're very they're not getting like stupid cut so it's also kind of scary though cuz I have so little knowledge of cars you know most other things I think you can
00:38:52 | ceciliaimgreen: kind of look up online
00:39:00 | ceciliaimgreen: even then my setup broke on me so what do I know but with cars I feel like when I try looking into it for them
00:39:10 | ceciliaimgreen: it is it does fall into this oh this is wrong with this car and this is wrong with this car unless you spend a bunch of money obviously if you're buying car for
00:39:16 | ceciliaimgreen: bajillion dollars then it's fine but if you try getting something kind of you know affordable
00:39:18 | ceciliaimgreen: then
00:39:23 | ceciliaimgreen: it's it's it's I don't know I have no idea of I have no knowledge of course
00:39:29 | ceciliaimgreen: and then they asked me things and they like do you think this is an FPS like I don't even know what that means
00:39:32 | ceciliaimgreen: oh my headset oh my God sorry
00:39:35 | ceciliaimgreen: my airpod fell out
00:39:42 | ceciliaimgreen: fell down I hope that wasn't too loud yeah so it happens
00:39:44 | ceciliaimgreen: um where
00:39:49 | ceciliaimgreen: where I'm I I just don't really know I
00:39:53 | ceciliaimgreen: don't really know yeah I'm okay it's just a head to this so
00:40:12 | ceciliaimgreen: so it's not like I can confidently you know there's also this fear of okay what if I force them to buy this car I forced them to get over the decision paralysis and then they hate the car and then it breaks in a year and then you know they're sad forever
00:40:17 | ceciliaimgreen: and then they put it to the they they get back into this Loop of fixing their car once a year
00:40:21 | ceciliaimgreen: anyway well not
00:40:22 | ceciliaimgreen: that's my
00:40:32 | ceciliaimgreen: thank you again for cheering me on I did see the chat while I was trying to fix things and I warmed my heart
00:40:40 | ceciliaimgreen: my aunt and beating but life was hard to see you guys cheering for me I don't really know what to do if I should
00:40:44 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know if
00:40:46 | ceciliaimgreen: I don't know if I can fix it
00:40:50 | ceciliaimgreen: and also it is
00:40:52 | ceciliaimgreen: kind of a hassle and it is
00:40:55 | ceciliaimgreen: causing me some distress
00:40:58 | ceciliaimgreen: me me me
00:41:03 | ceciliaimgreen: a different screen
00:41:08 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah we'll see or maybe I can get a
00:41:12 | ceciliaimgreen: portable Wi-Fi box or whatever it's called
00:41:14 | ceciliaimgreen: I keep you updated
00:41:16 | ceciliaimgreen: for y'all
00:41:18 | ceciliaimgreen: who take a nap I think
00:41:22 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe I'll get me so much food
00:41:23 | ceciliaimgreen: I'm like no I don't
00:41:34 | ceciliaimgreen: my mom snuck it all into my bag and I'm like no I don't need this okay
00:41:43 | ceciliaimgreen: but you know that's fine that is that is complaining about nice nice piece I can I'll eat it I'll eat it
00:41:48 | ceciliaimgreen: so
00:41:51 | ceciliaimgreen: they give me
00:41:56 | ceciliaimgreen: she she put some food instead of
00:42:01 | ceciliaimgreen: I think in like a Tupa box she put it into an old ice cream container
00:42:05 | ceciliaimgreen: I think because she doesn't trust me to give her back her to the boxes and she's like you're not going to give me
00:42:18 | ceciliaimgreen: okay a small kind of milk wow it's
00:42:23 | ceciliaimgreen: basic grocery store right now I could have bought myself
00:42:26 | ceciliaimgreen: but it's sweet it's sweet
00:42:28 | ceciliaimgreen: what else could you give me
00:42:34 | ceciliaimgreen: oh hell yeah
00:42:35 | ceciliaimgreen: so I'm back
00:42:44 | ceciliaimgreen: but like the powder kind that's why when you put when you put water boil water
00:42:55 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah is it at least good to me yeah it's 1 of my favorite cinnamon cinnamon cinnamon toast crunch
00:43:11 | ceciliaimgreen: cereal and soup heck yeah yeah it's food yeah yeah I'll eat it I'll happily eat it all I've been reading a book and trains and and buses and stuff
00:43:17 | ceciliaimgreen: which has been nice hopefully it's good I'm only going to see what page am I on
00:43:41 | ceciliaimgreen: I'm only a cool 2 fifths in 2 a quarter a little bit of a quarter so you can still go downhill from here the other day I started booking actually I don't drop books very often especially a short ones like under 65 500 pages I don't usually drop them but this 1 was so bad I have to drop it I think I talked about it already the stupid
00:43:45 | ceciliaimgreen: werewolf 1 okay well anyways thank you very much for listening to me
00:43:54 | ceciliaimgreen: I will ponder in the next and um if I do delete it I'm sorry well I can't hear that
00:43:58 | ceciliaimgreen: um but if I don't delete it um
00:44:00 | ceciliaimgreen: you know hello
00:44:08 | ceciliaimgreen: Twitter space What listeners and um think you like the most fun listening uh to me crash out and
00:44:14 | ceciliaimgreen: um rent and walk in a circle I feel a bit better I'm fine
00:44:18 | ceciliaimgreen: it's fine
00:44:19 | ceciliaimgreen: it's
00:44:25 | ceciliaimgreen: just a frustrating so annoying I hate when Tech doesn't work oh my God
00:44:30 | ceciliaimgreen: but it's okay
00:44:33 | ceciliaimgreen: I'll eat the rest of my
00:44:36 | ceciliaimgreen: my niece almonds
00:44:43 | ceciliaimgreen: maybe I'll have some orange juice and I bought
00:44:46 | ceciliaimgreen: and then now I will see you in like in
00:44:48 | ceciliaimgreen: 12 hours I think
00:44:52 | ceciliaimgreen: yeah yeah thank you very much
00:44:55 | ceciliaimgreen: bye bye everyone
00:44:58 | ceciliaimgreen: and I'll see you soon oh wow
00:45:01 | ceciliaimgreen: uh
00:45:02 | ceciliaimgreen: uh
00:45:04 | ceciliaimgreen: ciao uh
00:45:13 | ceciliaimgreen: no is that how low was the device 5 right that both of them right
00:45:15 | ceciliaimgreen: what are the language can I say bye
00:45:21 | ceciliaimgreen: gracias thank you bye how do I enter
00:45:23 | ceciliaimgreen: this 1
00:45:25 | ceciliaimgreen: bye
00:45:28 | ceciliaimgreen: and space yes