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okay


you've never left I don't think that's how


it okay um I'm here between your space hello


awesome


okay I want to is the audio coming from my phone


blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah oh I'm going to put the phone to my mouth and then I'm going to put it away blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah is it


or was it oh is it


oh is it the


why is it the headset what is better audio


oh it's like I can hear her


it's fine to have my crazy list the crazy


crazy you're scared it's a bit behind


oh I mean


about to play shit versus what's beyond just so


audio is fine


that's the same so not the fuk okay well welcome in everyone thank you very much


today we crash out as I crash I'm going to walk while talking because I'm so mad


let me close the window so I don't bother the stupid fucking ass dumb ass stupid


dumb ass stupid


you can take as you can tell I was gonna do a stream but I didn't work out I am a phone Walker so when I'm on the phone which this basically is if you think about it I walk all over the place or when I'm thinking I walk or when I do anything I walk because I don't walk well I don't well I when I wake up don't want then I'm sitting because I have to be on the desktop but usually if I'm on the phone I walk because I'm thinking and it makes me help think and today I was out and about all day going


and then I was like okay how much time do I have ooh okay if I'm if I'm back at the apartment by 7:30 I have 1 and a half hours


after I have my laptop with me the other day because I didn't sleep here last night and then I


let me put this to the side


waiting music in the Twitter space relax me now I'm angry again um and then I


the other day I had the laptop so I had a lot of issues with e33 last time right so I was like why what's going on what's Happening


and I think what I noticed what that there was like a weird delay between the audio and the keyboard input but my keyboard had broken very recently only the space bar but only the left side of the space bar so I was like oh okay maybe it's the keyboard


I also use a switch input which I've used Forever by the way it's never had any issues I use a switch input between my 2 PCS because when it's connected to both PCS I can switch between it and I can I have 2 keyboards but 1 is like kind of shitty just you know I just use it for streaming and controlling OBS and the other 1 is my good gaming good good good good good keyboard but it's okay because I ordered a new keyboard the same variety but with different switches I love these switches they're


I've ever bought


so I was like why is it struggling with this game


so I tested the game profusely profusely on his own again


it was working


the keyboard cuz I was like what if there's some weird keyboard delay I was looking fuck


the audio was fucking fine and was doing the was not doing the wrong weird stuttering the other day


so then I come here


at like 7:40 because obviously that was stupid traffic so I'm a little bit late and I come here and I'm like oh everything's fine I have so much time so I set up all that stupid cables again because there's like a million to my cables so I set it up it's fine and I set up the capture card and everything's fine and I stopped playing the game


and then I noticed okay


they're still weird input delay it's like it's not working


so I changed the settings in the in the in the you know I changed the stuff to lower Resolute not resolution lower quality but then it like starts frame dropping like crazy and then even if it was working on the laptop it wasn't capturing it properly I thought it was cutting off


and then I was figuring out okay I got this I can just use the audio from the TV screen like from the screen instead of using it from the laptop which was working


so everything was working


everything looks working


and then I capture card to stop working


so I think my theory is okay I have 3 theories a I am cursed


my second theory is now hear me out guys my second


my second theory is um for some reason there's too many devices and I don't know the because my my the streaming left the streaming computer that I have been using is the same computer I've been using for like 4 months now at home


so it works right like


I also used very similar setup in Japan and then I worked as well so it's not the it's not the hardware that's really the issue but


it might be the screen or I did the capture card maybe the capture card is broken


maybe it's the capture card on the screen or the USB switch or it's just too many things that I connected to the left up and the laptop's like I can't literally


or something like that and then my third theory is that um I mean Theory C


is that I'm cursed


I'm going to lay down on the floor


and I'm very sorry


because I really wanted to stream


and I want you to think to myself oh I'm not going to cancel but maybe I should maybe it's just not meant to be


but then I thought you know what I've been playing shadowverse every time I'm in the train might as well play shadowverse


and now I think my internet died I don't know like when I tested it it goes between being like yeah we have a 100 bigger bite trust us and then it goes down and then it's like no I don't believe you


I don't know


um anyways I apologize for the crash out I might I might delete this Twitter space afterwards I'll think about it no I'm sitting laying on my belly


okay I'm fine but other than that I had really good food today it's not a spider


that is a spider in the corner it's fine I don't mind it's okay it just needs to live it just wants to be free just like me


and then


what else


I


I spent 1 night at my parents that was nice they're sweet


but also I had a bunch of meetings and they're like


they're like


literally can't I got work to do I got things to do you got places to be they're like yeah but


but we have a car


and they're very sweet because in their eyes I think they think as long as they


I don't know I I don't know because they know that I'm working right now like usually when I was at them it's like vacation right so then we can do whatever


but they're very nice very sweet very cute


um


I got places to be I got a water home word to see it's true


and then and then yeah I've been going to doctors it's been experiences of the experiences beautiful and wonderful and negative and positive


and I've seen


I did spend 1 afternoon with my parents and we went to Christmas markets I love Christmas markets


I could go to Christmas


just give me specific Christmas m m snacks my favorite Christmas Market snack size follows this next I mean you can probably find this in other places as well number 1 um


actually I don't know which order


I really like hot like maroons


so they're they're like baked or something fried and fire I don't know burned and then they and then they go they're hot and they put them in paper bags and then you peel it and then you burn yourself on it at least 5 times and then you eat them and they're delicious


and then


they also like uh uh um


which is kind of like hash browns but not really they're kind of like hash brownie potato pancakes and you usually have them with apples


which is delicious and then I also like


which I have here a bag actually of Nicole like burnt


almonds but they actually like


just almonds and then they put around a sugary coat and then they caramelize it and it's really hard but it's yummy also although this pack kind of too hard like it's almost like


every time you put in your mouth you a little bit worried you might break your tooth I'm going to eat 1 now


crunchy


hope I'm not smudging into your ear I need water Where's my water


so yeah I had a lot of nice snacks and I really like winter and um Christmas and um


what else what else did I do


crashed out multiple times


I don't know it's just so frustrating


someone thinks to


but when you traveling I can't there's no real there's no real solution I have


like some friends that I can stay at and I can like borrow their setup for a day or 2 but I can't stay there for like weeks you know that's kind of weird it's kind of rude me screaming in the middle of the night they're like oh I have to go get up tomorrow at 7 a.m.


and um yeah I don't really feel comfortable with like because there's like noise noise noise noise and stuff so


I don't I can't stay on my parents


so I can't really stay anywhere for too long so I can't really get a proper 100% setup so I was really banking on this working and I mean it worked kind of some of the days


I think when I just started work but that was with a different screen maybe the screen is the problem


maybe the screen is the problem I bought this like no-name garbage streets freaking screen from current physically from a store


maybe I should send it back


and when I say send it back I mean walk there and give it back I don't want this give me back my money it was really cheap maybe I shouldn't have skipped out on the screen but I'm not going to get take the screen with me so it felt like a waste investing a lot of money


okay


I'm an adult


I got this


but yeah so I feel bad but I don't know everyone's been doing well


I'll talk to the fixing things if I can


um


it's Christmas soon so that's nice


and I like


oh yeah we're doing the what's it called video game award watch along tonight hopefully my stuff will work until then


but I don't really need much I just need to be their worst case I'm a PNG


to be on call


with my phone


just a week away yeah cucumber


cucumber


any special plans for Christmas I'm going to eat a lot of food I think


so much food


and uh


yeah


so the rest of the week


tonight is the thingy and then oh my God what is my setup doesn't work for Saturday


I'll figure something out


and then Sunday is a regular Street


I'll just place it over the reason I was going to play Shadow versus it's because it's


installed on my main PC and it's not as heavy as like most other games so I could just run it while running obvious but you know I guess the world hates everything


and specifically me right now


I just saw something on the floor


Do You Believe In The e33 Sweep I mean what other games


this came out this year


what games came


out in 2025


ma is yes I do believe in the e33 sweep


um wild okay I mean what else was pretty good


silk song was nice night rain


they were belly and like huge releases this year


which is weird I don't know why


at least know like new new games maybe like we make them stuff but


that's crazy that's not that many what about 2024


maybe that's just how it is these days


maybe that's just not that many big releases in general


since


but there's a lot of indie games that come out each year and some of them are crazy good and sweep sweep the floor


I want to watch the the what's it called the categories are


game awards know me 2025


nominees


join the live event know I'm wondering if she doesn't know me more ways to know it's show me the money where the nominees


where


no knees all Game of the Year oh it's just not Game of the Year me we don't see the nominees yet


except dollars or December 11th


I mean what's going to win goy


I think it's going to be I just think there's a recency bias it's going to be E3 well Silk songs also really good


I do wonder I do Wonder well Amy um that's going to happen very soon so hopefully you're looking forward to that I'm going to be on needle stream which is um with bear and uh Callie Callie some


and uh


yeah other than that I've been having this stuff on my head and it's an evil thought


I haven't decided if I'm going to go for it but I've thought to myself since since I started here I haven't really ever


well I mean I did PC which was like a huge investment I guess but I have never


gotten like


something you know for myself so thinking but I've been having this evil thought


it's manifested into my head it's like buried itself deep in my head


and I'm thinking of buying a violin violin because mine is kind of it's It's seen better days a little bit


I've been thinking about that


and I'm going to be traveling to a city soon that is where my original violin maker is so then I could go there and check it out


but I don't know because I was like oh


I don't play it that much so it's not really worth it but if everything goes well


and I fixed my hands


and I could play again again the more again but it's a little bit of this like ah I feel bad


feel bad


but I don't know


it seems like I don't


I don't have like a car or anything like that oh my God a proper car my parents like a car bro


garbage oh car that they bought many years ago and every year it breaks and they bring it to the repair shop and then they repair it and the money that they've spent on repairing the stupid ass car at this point it's like more money than it probably costs to begin with right and I'm like just you got to you got to get a new not a they can still get a used car and they would never get a new car I don't get any new comics and he says


buying a privately which makes sense you know people and blah blah so then we go to the dealerships and then they're like ah okay let's look around and I'm like no you go to the salesman talk to them and then you tell them exactly what you want and then they give you something or they try selling you a car and they're like yeah but we don't know what you want exactly that's why you have to go to the assessment so what they made me do is they waited they they they went there and then they stood o


salesman was like oh is it come for you and I'm like no it's my parents


no it's


oh oh oh oh you want that no I don't even have a driver's license it's okay and then they finally found a car


and then they well not they didn't find a car but they found 1 that was interesting to them you know it was the right price class and everything and then the the salesman is like oh you want to do to my mom because she drives mostly and then he's like do you want to do a test drive and she and she's like no no it's okay no no no I don't have to and I'm like if you want to try cars you're going to have to try cars but she keeps going no okay okay okay okay okay yeah and then my dad says no you d


you have to buy the car even if you don't end up actually buying it you have to try the car otherwise you can't make a decision and then it went so far that we like set in in the car with the salesman and my dad didn't even


stupid car and then they went on a drive for 10 minutes and my dad was just standing on his own in the cold confused what was happening


they triggered me so much oh my God I love them very dearly they're very sweet but um


oh my God


it's like it's like it's like children it's like tomb 2 2 old children at this point he was just standing many more G in the corner


they're so


I don't understand I mean I I I don't know it's I obviously I know that some people are afraid of talking to sales personnel and I also know that some salesperson that can be kind of rude


you know or dismissive especially when I don't know when you're old I don't know it's it's hard to to judge right and I'm I don't think it's


wrong to be shy but they're not shy they're just like


they really want a new car but they don't really want to go through the hassle of looking for a new car they want to magically get a new car right


but they don't know what car they don't know what brand they don't know they don't know anything or they know is it should be kind of small they don't even know if they want an automatic or know they're like


oh well it would be nice if it was automatic but it doesn't have to be automatic


I am out my mother's like oh wow


maybe it could be automatic and then I say but I thought you don't like automatic yeah well


I don't know


I've never driven automatic yeah okay what do you want me to do about it well then the car that they tested they they they they my dad was outside and then they drove you know around and then when she when we came back and then afterwards when we were walking back he says know that car was really loud I think I don't think that's a good car


replacing that


awful


literally


what do you mean really loud it has a motor of course it's going to be


it's crazy decision runs in the family they are on a completely different level they're like the type of people my parents are the type of people that will not fix anything


even


like the 4


I don't know how long my brother and I we we we bickered at we get along fine and we got along fine even then but we fought a lot when we were children we fought a lot and we would break things even after children like in 2


2 long to be proud of


we would still physically fight and we broke like doors and stuff and so there was 1 door that just didn't close


and then they kept going oh we should fix it we should fix it we should fix it yeah we'll do it we'll do it and it took them like I don't know 8 years


part of the door like the outside part of the door was just the the the the door itself


oh my God


or they said oh we have to we have to fix our kitchen we're going to renovate our kitchen and it took them like


also 5 years to finally renovate the kitchen


so long with this car and then when


I saw them the other


I've been seeing them like in between here and there and then I I asked them they said oh we don't have a car right now and I said oh what happened it broke down and I said oh okay so you want to get a new car yeah no we put it to the


we brought it to the car repair shop and I'm like no


you have to let go stop investing money into this broken down dumbass and the thing is like they hate that car right they they hate the way it drives they hate they hate it it's a very common car from the early I don't know I don't know that much about cars but I know every single person I've ever talked to that has had that stupid car has complained about that car like it breaks and it dies and it sucks


people are starting to do a New Year's explosive thingies


that old Voice still got life in it


still now


I don't know why they still have it I it's like this it's it's this


if it ain't broken don't fix it but it goes to if it's broken fix it and I keep it forever until it's broken again and then fix it


so bad


um


yeah so they've been going through that and I trying to help


cuz


I don't know


I don't know they just


we get along


pretty well


but it's I get rich but it's like crazy and I don't I like them a lot but we don't spend that much time together


because I get right to be very very easy then I mean nowadays I've been pretty busy


and I don't live super close to them so I can't just visit them like here and there


easily


but maybe maybe I should I don't know I try it


and now obviously they really liked that car


and then with positive about it and then my mom Googled negative things about car XYZ and then she got a bunch of negative obviously


if you Google that


and then she starts going well a lot of people online say


that this this car makes this issue and this issue no I don't think we should get that car no I think it's actually really bad oh it's going it's so bad no we shouldn't get that


yeah yeah I was bound to happen yeah it's okay so I'll still


I just have to push I guess


because there's so miserable because usually my mom because of the car not in general because my usually my mother she takes the car to work and now she has to depend on the Dodge band and the Dodge band is the most vile evil thing in the world and every day she complies oh I had to wait there was 20 30 minutes ago


but then they haven't the car broke down 3 weeks ago


and they didn't go to a cardio ship a single time


until I drag them to 1 it's like obviously you're not going to you're not going to get a new car if you don't go to the cash shop


yeah


this week the sweet people


but they're so


they range between me specifically all the time


oh my God yeah can you see my battery fine yeah my battery is fine


yeah I mean you think you might think I'm bad at like making decisions but they're 10 million times worse


I don't know I feel bad because I want to be more present for them and you know help them I think it's


I do think it's hard for old people in we live in a society we literally live in a society I think it's hard for old people to like


stay up to date with technology and everything


and I mean they're doing fine they're using phones they're using the internet


my automaton Papa he like looks up recipes online and then he cooks them and it's like whoa whoa technology is crazy


but I think it's very hard to navigate because the last time they bought a car


and um retail I think that's been a huge shift obviously because of online shopping with retail a lot of retail I don't know how it is in other countries but at least in Germany a lot of Staff don't really like they don't really care anymore you know it's like oh you come to the store you just going to look at it and then you're going to buy it online anyways and


I think the it's not I in Germany it's never been this like oh the customized King you if the customers annoying he's not they're not King but you know you still want to sell a product and nowadays because it has changed a lot I don't think I don't know I feel like old people kind of struggle sometimes unless they're very tech-savvy but if they don't have a job that has to do with tech


you know if they do like physical labor or something like that but it can be kind of hard


and then the customer service isn't as personal yeah yeah yeah yeah it's those type of things you know


where


I think my parents struggle a bit because back then the last time they bought a car


it's really long ago and I think they like there was this incentive


you know which happened sometimes in in you know oh we buy this car and then you get this new car I think it was new the car they got actually


I don't remember I think it was 2 I was too little and then um


now they look up they try looking it up online and then obviously you can find things but it's really hard to differentiate okay what's private what's like a natural store where you can go to


and yeah I think they struggle because they kind of


they're not with the times as much


um no they're not retired it's not both of them but they still


I mean my mom's also


literally German isn't her first language so it's so so hard obviously


but I don't know I try to help well sometimes at least in this case I tried well I will keep trying I will I will force them I will force them to buy a car


and I'm hope it will work but I wish I would wish for them to like manage these things on their own which you know would be healthier


and I think my ultimate brother usually


helps out how how the things because he lives next to them


or not next to them but very close to them


but he's been busy busy


busy cuz he got a job a new job wow


give them a car know they would kill me


they're the type of people like if you try paying for something at the restaurant it's like a struggle you know it's like a fight almost you have to really you have to either be sneaky about it


or you have to I don't know fight even if it's just fast food 10 10 year old


no no save your money


no I'm like no I can't I


the typical parents yeah yeah I wasn't even thinking about it you know um not but I I I I think it's a bit uh


I don't think I mean it really depends on the person but for my my my parents


I think they would feel what's the word


oh my God


not belittle but


oh my God not pay patronized patronized


gets his own also I wouldn't want I wouldn't want to ever buy something like that which is pretty expensive


if I'm not 100% sure if that specific model is what they want but since they don't even know what they want it's not like I could like do it anyways


yeah


yeah I think it's patronized yeah


if you share the gift now no no no they're very very stingy


well not stingy but they're very safe and scared


scared of money things so I don't think I think they would kill me


paying for something that they need in a plane to buying you know like let's say I I you know I buy them a while we buy them a holiday like my ultimate brother and it's like a trip or something


that's a present but a car I think that's a bit


it's a bit much for them I don't think they would handle it very well but my gift can be my presence


in carrying them to the shop and forcing them forcing them to try out cars hopefully hopefully it'll be okay


yeah no I mean I like my parents and they're very sweet but they're rich with me me personally and I can't


I think I get too easily triggered and then I I don't I don't I don't I think when I was a smaller automaton I'm gonna delete this space by the way this is way too


way too personal anyways I think back then was what I did we had you know I was a bit of a that was a bit of a trouble kid like not not in a criminal way but in a you know I didn't I didn't want to I didn't want I didn't I didn't oh my God it's like you know that video from what is it called Riverdale where jacket goes


I don't want to fit in I don't I'm I'm weird I'm not normal I don't fit in have you ever seen me with this stupid hat on know right


no but I I was a bit of a it was a bit of a trouble trouble kid trouble some kid and um so we had some issues but since I moved out it's been really good and it's been healthy and it's been communicative and it's been nice but when I spent a lot of time like sitting when we sit sit on top of each other for 2 months too too long then old patterns 3 surface and then I get triggered I'm I'm calm nowadays and I'm like okay it's just how it is but it makes me


may not want to like


yeah I don't know not you know I can I can I can love them and still see thoughts I think in my opinion


yeah I was a bit of a brat know I was not not like in that sense


if it didn't but you had better forms of did he


good for him


yeah


anyways they're very they're not getting like stupid cut so it's also kind of scary though cuz I have so little knowledge of cars you know most other things I think you can


kind of look up online


even then my setup broke on me so what do I know but with cars I feel like when I try looking into it for them


it is it does fall into this oh this is wrong with this car and this is wrong with this car unless you spend a bunch of money obviously if you're buying car for


bajillion dollars then it's fine but if you try getting something kind of you know affordable


then


it's it's it's I don't know I have no idea of I have no knowledge of course


and then they asked me things and they like do you think this is an FPS like I don't even know what that means


oh my headset oh my God sorry


my airpod fell out


fell down I hope that wasn't too loud yeah so it happens


um where


where I'm I I just don't really know I


don't really know yeah I'm okay it's just a head to this so


so it's not like I can confidently you know there's also this fear of okay what if I force them to buy this car I forced them to get over the decision paralysis and then they hate the car and then it breaks in a year and then you know they're sad forever


and then they put it to the they they get back into this Loop of fixing their car once a year


anyway well not


that's my


thank you again for cheering me on I did see the chat while I was trying to fix things and I warmed my heart


my aunt and beating but life was hard to see you guys cheering for me I don't really know what to do if I should


I don't know if


I don't know if I can fix it


and also it is


kind of a hassle and it is


causing me some distress


me me me


a different screen


yeah we'll see or maybe I can get a


portable Wi-Fi box or whatever it's called


I keep you updated


for y'all


who take a nap I think


maybe I'll get me so much food


I'm like no I don't


my mom snuck it all into my bag and I'm like no I don't need this okay


but you know that's fine that is that is complaining about nice nice piece I can I'll eat it I'll eat it


so


they give me


she she put some food instead of


I think in like a Tupa box she put it into an old ice cream container


I think because she doesn't trust me to give her back her to the boxes and she's like you're not going to give me


okay a small kind of milk wow it's


basic grocery store right now I could have bought myself


but it's sweet it's sweet


what else could you give me


oh hell yeah


so I'm back


but like the powder kind that's why when you put when you put water boil water


yeah is it at least good to me yeah it's 1 of my favorite cinnamon cinnamon cinnamon toast crunch


cereal and soup heck yeah yeah it's food yeah yeah I'll eat it I'll happily eat it all I've been reading a book and trains and and buses and stuff


which has been nice hopefully it's good I'm only going to see what page am I on


I'm only a cool 2 fifths in 2 a quarter a little bit of a quarter so you can still go downhill from here the other day I started booking actually I don't drop books very often especially a short ones like under 65 500 pages I don't usually drop them but this 1 was so bad I have to drop it I think I talked about it already the stupid


werewolf 1 okay well anyways thank you very much for listening to me


I will ponder in the next and um if I do delete it I'm sorry well I can't hear that


um but if I don't delete it um


you know hello


Twitter space What listeners and um think you like the most fun listening uh to me crash out and


um rent and walk in a circle I feel a bit better I'm fine


it's fine


it's


just a frustrating so annoying I hate when Tech doesn't work oh my God


but it's okay


I'll eat the rest of my


my niece almonds


maybe I'll have some orange juice and I bought


and then now I will see you in like in


12 hours I think


yeah yeah thank you very much


bye bye everyone


and I'll see you soon oh wow


uh


ciao uh


trixie ʚ♡⃛ɞ⋆｡˚👧💄


no is that how low was the device 5 right that both of them right


what are the language can I say bye


gracias thank you bye how do I enter


this 1


bye


and space yes